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For the first time in my life I admitted I needed help. I am mid-thirties and have realized that I hate my job so much that I need something to help get me through each day. I've been a nurse for 8 years. I hate waking up at 0400, running my tush off all day, never knowing when *&$^ will hit the fan and I will have to stay late, being asked/pressured to work extra shifts, not getting my breaks, dealing with sick/dying people and their families, putting up with nonsensical dementia patients who ramble on and on, all the drama that comes with being a floor nurse and having to have your hands in every little part of a patient's day/life while they are in your care, more and more stupid paperwork that takes time away from real patient care, soooooo many frickin' PILLS, traffic to/from work, losing sleep every night while reviewing my crazy day and dreading/anticipating the next day, having no energy/time to take care of myself, no life-work balance, etc, etc.

I can't stand it anymore. So I asked my doc for some antidepressants and we will see how it goes as they build up in my system. If that doesn't work then maybe I will cut down to part time and suffer the financial hit.

Does anybody else find the, "You're lucky to have a job at all," attitude in this economy adds to the stress at work? I feel it gives employers license to use and abuse the hell out of their staff until they are all used up.

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You have plenty of experience. Give hospice or home health a try. You will be giving no pills. Visits can be rather short if the pt is comfortable and you are out of there to the next one. You take your lunch when you want. I know how you feel. I only felt better when i left acute care, even though i was also taking anti-depressants off and on throughout the years.

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Please don't medicate yourself for this problem. Anti-depressants have side effects and are nearly impossible to wean off of.

Of course you are anxious and depressed... you job SUX! Throwing a pill at it isn't going to make it go away.

Go down to part time today. use your additional time to find something that you don't need drugs to cope with.

Good luck, keep us posted.

BTW.. your "Job description" was very well written... think along those lines when you job hunt.

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Yes, I totally understand everything you said. I have not started antidepressants though. Instead I'm hoping to try something new. Whether it be home health or another hospital, something has to change. I absolutely dread going to work & dealing with the stress...I ended up crying on my last shift. That's how I know that I have got to change something.

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I worked acute care nights for 4 yrs and so many co-workers used sleeping pills to keep themselves going- I swore if it ever came time for me to consider medication to get through my day, I'd call it quits!

I hated the hospital for all of the reasons you described. I went to home health and was much happier.

Please don't blame yourself for hating your work. Acute care is by no means for everyone! And it's OK to want to quit your job even with this economy. You have plenty of experience, you will have no trouble finding a MUCH less stressful job :)

Best Wishes!

Yes, I totally understand everything you said. I have not started antidepressants though. Instead I'm hoping to try something new. Whether it be home health or another hospital, something has to change. I absolutely dread going to work & dealing with the stress...I ended up crying on my last shift. That's how I know that I have got to change something.

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Starting to feel the same way. I started on ativan a little while ago and that helped me. I stopped taking it while going back for RN but now that I'm working full-time, I need to start taking it again.

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I would suggest you work every day on finding a job that better suits you. Just the act of looking for something different may help your outlook.

I don't mean leave nursing (unless you want to), but find a different position within nursing.

Good luck.

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Anti-depressants are not going to change any of the things you listed. You can't just take a pill and expect it to change the circumstances of your life. Everything you listed will still be there with the antidepressants.

This is actually one of the reasons why I am leaving my job. I have been at my current position for 4 1/2 years and now that I'm at the point where I have severe anxiety and don't sleep any night before I have to go to work and basically have heart palpitations the entire way in, it's time to move on. A nurse at work who works in the employee support program suggested to me that I call my PCP and get a prescription for PRN anxiolytics. I did not do it- a pill wouldn't take away the bulls*&% and, as a rule, I do not take psychotropic medications.

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antidepressants and anxiolytics are only a short-term and temporary fix, to bring you up to a higher level of functioning so you can tackle the underlying causes of your depression and anxiety...because until you address the causes, nothing will change for you in the long run.

 

if you--and your doctor--really feel that antidepressants will be beneficial to you right now, by all means take them and see if they help. contrary to popular belief, they are not necessarily forever.

 

however--unless you're not telling us something pretty significant about your depression--i think you would be better served not by meds but by tackling the causes of your stress head-on, since you seem to have a good idea of what they are. but i am not your doctor/healthcare provider, and so i would defer to their advice over mine.

 

best of luck.

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I hope you find meds that help you. And with those meds try to enrich life away from work as well as look into finding new work. Do what you feel you need to do.

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All an antidepression medication will do to help you is let you feel happy if good things happen, as well as to be motivated to do things...IF you have a deficit of certain neurotransmitters in your brain. They won't do a thing for you if you have lots of crud in your life. The only thing that can help that is decreasing the crud. It sounds like your job is pretty full of crud.

Antidepressants and anxiolytics have their place, but they don't make life lovely if it's a black hole....

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I have to agree with the majority here. A pill isn't going to change your work situation. You might have to find another job--they aren't all like that. I had an insane job for 6 years and once I fianlly broke away to VNA it was a HUGE difference. Sure I still have hectic days, but NOTHING like before. It's flexable and I document when I want, make my own schedue (for the most part) I see about 7 patients in 5-6 hrs a day 4 days a week. One weekend a month. It's perfect. 2 kids in school, I am also in school. I find working out and blasting music while doing so helps. Excersise is just like taking an antidepressant;)

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