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  1. zuzi

    Monday, 2/8/10

    LOONG way today with a GPS broken... I was just to pass mexican border, loooool. News... the police woman listening mexican songs in convertible POLICE cars...HUUUUUH, may be I dreamed...NOP was REAL! Convertible police car...OMG! I am in Mexico..... aribaaaaaaaa! Another one is up on the lader, building a house...here we are.... why I fell like at home...again...because I am scarred, lol. Dirty roads... and me on nowhere.... don't ask me where I was today, because I don't know... I mess up the roads.... beuatifull me, lol Ate a "mexican" buritto...the talked spanish but looking NOT, OMG...scarried Zuzi, go back in car and run...may be next stop will be in Seychelle....lol If I will let my snickers in the car and flipping around in bare feet, I will be much more welcomed.....they looked so strange at me...me too at them, loooool. Be carefull on your roads! Have a good night! And a song... for one of Zuzi's heart's gurl friends, dealing with evils now....... with all that I could do...close to you....
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    Monday, 2/8/10

    Good morning here! Slept very late at the night time and dizy in this morning! Was a very busy week and will be nother one the same. Need to clear up with officials for ever what was happen with Zuzi case and who and why, mess it up. I fell much more older than I am with all these nursing kukuness life experiences around...and scared how many mind twisted people could be around....is really scarry. One of "my old friends" talk nice with me on the phone, she needs to know....... she close the phone and call another one.... and "the nice one" become "the ugliness one"... why... FOR MONEY, for network, for POWER. This life is so beuatiful and we make it a mess, just because of money of dirty games. We teach youngs dirty games life, instead to teach them the clarity of souls and hearts.... I meet so so so many bad people than I am really scarred of ALL. Hey.... let yourself to be..... I ZUZI I don't need ANY neetwork, I need just to be me A NURSE and to live my life happy. Think ...YOU DON"T NEED Neetwork, neetwork means AND BAD really bad people in you don't want them......chose your friends, wisely, be carefull....and be JUST A NURSE! Let's sing somenthing happy
  3. zuzi

    Sunday 2-7-10

    Good morning all! Sun blue sky and sunshine here! Ugly wheteaher was GOOONE! And with it and all my sadness! :lol2: Long story, long time driving, to go! Big warm hugs to beautifull AMERICAN minds people....who try to unmessed what BAD ones messed up! Talk with "le baron" again....laugh again "cultural identity facilitator, cherry...looool", he is crazy that is all. Plus "Don't forget Zuzi..La bamba...", he, he, he...so right, so right, lol....other style the same me.... to messup a little with them kuku minds....lol :lol2::lol2:...not my style....:lol2: Life is how it is.... stay happy....smile...enjoy....my facial was come out PERFECT, I am good at this may be one day I will become the concurent of Sephora, loooool. Let's sing and listening Baccara......they are beuatifull, isn't it....looooool...THESE are beuatifull women and singers...nothing else.. Las reinas! Enjoy your sunday... and let's chat tonight after 18.00 in the same place! If you don't know the correct answer... ask the public...make 50%-50% (we don't offer bonuses there, lol), or... CALL A FRIEND. Love you like always!
  4. zuzi

    Curious: Cutest nurses work on which unit?

    Now depends of your "cutest" standards....I am sure that are not like mine, lol. No "cutest" seen still, to make a genaralisation, but again my cutest standards are others, .... long story. Stay just a nurse is better! Neither Hollywood stars are not paid better on this times! LOOOL Is hard to be young huh? Wait a little old is better!
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    Happy Birthday Liddle Noodnik

    Happy Birthday Zoe...please clone your self and spread aroud many others little Zoe, lol.......you are a "besoin" for this world and for so so so many of us! Be loved and stay happy enjoying your life many years from now. Love you!:heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat
  6. zuzi

    Friday 2-5-10

    Oh Zoe...missy you are a young one! Happy birthady with ALL the best ! I love you for you also....what I will do here, without you and your heart's loving advices.... you are a such heart loving one.. a tresure! What present you want for your birthday???? Zuzi life...need to clean need to cook and I have 10001 more thinks that i don't want to do.... and is cold.... What is uplifting???? A massage, lol.... a beauty time???? Let's organize my life and bussiness a little and after..... you guessed right.... a sauna time and massage! Is friaday...be loved...
  7. zuzi

    Thursday 2-4-10

    A big dihotomy today in my head... we live like givers or takers... that is the difference beetwen our worlds, beetwen us, beewten me and you... "To give and to take" ....is not about money is not about fellings ...is about how we are builded... and how we can't change us ..at all... we are givers...or takers... And If I could not live as is normal to live, talking without close-ending sentences if I could not be myself if I am not a whole..... I look so so so strange in this, saying again YES SIR..... givers or takers life.....so I RAN, now because is better early now than too late! Living in a world of words and sounds .... are words that hurt..... or not......is how we live... we don't need to be upset, you don't need to be upset........is about how we live and choose........"givers or takers"....or both...:lol2: Valentine day is close.....he, he, he... be in love....and loved...
  8. zuzi

    Tuesday-February 2nd

    Good evening my good friends! Last night I dreamed my granny just how she was, old little, with her pure blue eyes and with her last nail polished by me in one the grand daughter-grannt evenings togheter.... She pated my head like she did alt the time....."I cook soup like you like it...I need to go to buy meat...you could not come with me, Zuzitza (was her name for me)....no no I want to be alone, you stay here, i will be back and I will cook for you...when I come back..." I waked up early with an empty soul.... I miss her badly.... I will cook for her and I will share with homless from the streets the food...is a tradition ...from where i come.... Was a bad day today...I fell so empty! In ...I don't know when....my memory.... I worked in a outreach group to help prostitutes on the streets. I worked with "medicine sans frontiere"... just few days.... enough to not handle it.... Today I feelled like the "NURSE-PROSTITUTE", selling and dealing with the client for MONEY! You know what means in prostitute language "all inclusive"??? Is how I dealed today in nursing field, for a nursing job....... I am RN damn it.... and I am not...for sell, I do nursing because I LOVE IT! And each world became words heard from another world, words that don't let any open doors..."you need to decide now!!!!..."..."may be you are not so good for here, for us..."..... I touched behind me... IS THE WALL THAT WALL , that damn wall that I am soo scarred..... I heard me telling them, then..."you need to talk...don't let you intimidated...you are human been...someone told you how beuatifull souls you are...." MSF asked me what I told them..... rien....bien??? LOOOOL, not rien.... is how is them world.... they don't want to change NOTHING". They are scarred, they was scarred! How will be my world???? Again PINK I love the words of the song.....be good as good as you could be....tired badly after this challenging day....
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    Frigid February 1st 2010

    Good evening here! Very cold day here, but even like that what amazing day.....Bloomimgdale on the top of the searching plus... Eillen Fisher....you know I have few that I like it... I like the style from there....I am toooooooo european for here, and to UNSTILISH for much more than italian shoes, looool. 280$ an awesome white silk plain blouse EF, well...I don't have bad tastes... Chocolateeeeee... from Zurich....uhoooooo.... just one truffle is 12 $, ONE! Perfume...this time Cartier...MUST... a enchantment d'esprit... more than 100$ Richies rich and me, looooool.....preppies... A LOT! Nights flyers.... "pretty womens"..... smile I drink my swiss coffe 4.95 is all that i could afford it, but I am ok.... "Could i help you with somenthing"....yup "I would like to try this white gold bracelet.. Cartier...of course...." Is nice.... I tried some pants and deux pieces in a separee, just like you seen in movies... me and my two seller assistants.......my big bottom ass is not lokking well in any..... I am big fat moma, lol....Walmart for me! Vuitton bags....looool, I just don't like them but I like the cuban seller, loool was a nice one! People talk about LOVE, noooooooo... they talk about money... they could buy love with it.....loooooool.... they could buy anythink..... from everywhere..... My flip flops sound clinck -clanck on the Carara rocks of the floor.....drive in flip-flops on free way, drinking coffe and listening PINK! You could have anything and everythink, you could have anyone and be pleasead by ALL.... you don't have...."glitter in the air".... How cheap will sell HER NURSE-SELF this time......just this time, lol.... ZUZI??? LOOL Listen with me... I just love it....is about LOVE like always! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Qtf-l9pbBI
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    Sunday January 31, 2010

    Have a good night all of you good ones. A very intersting night, like always catched between two worlds, never been in any of them.... what a life,..... lol. Was a meeting tonight with my past! Was a meeting with ME and my past! Never look behind always looks forward easy to say hard to do, we are the result of our mistakes. People told them LIFE EXPERIENCES.... I told them my naivity and lot of stupidity! Why was happend what was happend........because I dreamed too high and beeing so alone I couldn't deal with my lonliness...lol Because I belived people that was very bad, because behind a smile could be some bad people, because money are first least and always, because for people are easiest to hate and hurt than to love and heal, because FIRST are money and everythink is after....... because I am not like all others, wherever i will go....but i will try ALWAYS to be the nurse. Is hard... what will be happen if on the next interview i will see AGAIN, from a group of 6 people 4 will be from the same nation, talking beetwen them in the same foreign language????? " LOOK SHE IS ZUZI..... Is not my fault that I am not like you, neither my fault that you could not do more and pass an RN exam from the first time, neither my fault that the CEO/managerial positions are fulfilled by others, the same like you......is your world... you don't need to hate me..... Be good souls....
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    Saturday January 30, 2010

    Morning my dear. Sabby enjoy your home work and stay warm. Tweenty...welcome back...enjoy and smile. Joe let it fly and enjoy the life lived, everythink come or not when it need to come, may be is not the time for PhD, but time for another option, think at it! Here.. well you know me as soon is not sun warm and summer, happy nice friends and a love job I need to create them, imaginary.....analyzing like always.... By the way, did you hear about an "analyst" job nurse position, thinking based on facts, acting based on thinking ......how this could be fitted in real nursing world??? Just for laugh... a job nursing post on the paper had at requierements "financial critical awareness and judgement" FOR A NURSE! What life we start to live..... BAck to bed I am lazy, sleepy head...
  12. zuzi

    Friday 29th of January

    Yes Diane was a big challenge for me too.....I need badly this saturday and sunday...I am tired like heal and .... "a little", just a little mess-up.... is hard to explain thinks that could not be expained because could not be understand easily.... First... I am still scarred but work on it........ why... because I am and fell different, in a good way... is strange..... ALL my information came on the ALL normal sensorial paths, matching or not the past life experiences, making deep connections in a very fast way....is strange, was strange for me when I discoverd it. And first come fellings....first you fell and second the mind start to work... For this reason a real Zuzi, is not a Zuzi, she is just a looking like (you could create a ZUZI look easily and belive me is not so important.... people don't need Zuzis, people need people like them. The real Zuzi is an "overloaded" mind Zuzi, her mind works analyzing, the eyes seen, the nose smell, the hands touch but not touching, the soul feels and all of them they go togheter on the "freeway" mind path.... and "Bang!" Final conclusion! Some times i forgot to talk! Some times I just talked with words, just to talk, to fill empty spots without saying nothing .... because is somenthing that tell me..."be carefull" Are hugs that hurts, eyes that lies, smiles that are fakes... so i could not be me then.... Is procastination...no is not...is how it is.... Physiological is a high school easily explanation, lol, an excitation in a cortical area induces inhibition in adiacent others, and not only, lol....well I am speachless....yup How I could help my self... anyhow....I look dump, strange and not me at all.... You are how you look and how you speak! To be open dosen't means ONLY to go up to front and to tell..."Hey ya look at me, I am X and .....), to be open is to be ..... NORMAL, freely, not by purpose..... Big phylosophy on friaday evening.......tired...nop....overloaded.... I am how i am and I am ok with it! Let's sing.... Long time ago I was afraid that I am the only one in this way, that I am "too much", but it seems that I am not.... or are still people like me.....
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    Friday 29th of January

    Mooorning sweeties, I am in run... I have... loooooooong stories with beuatifull people, my heart sytart to pumping again........one of them ...my new Starbucks seller.... he sing each morning, EVERY EACH MORNING, Hary Belafonte sngs and I LOVE LOVE LOVE the singer and the style....he sing and dance behing Starbucks counter, I LOVE HIM..... plus that i drove on Freeway ALONE.... 6 driveways... and ME on the 6th, needed to be on first...looong story adrenaline high... I am ALIVE lol.... where is the next freeway, lol...I LOVE IT! Till then stay up, find somenthing ANYTHING to be in love with and to not see the ugliness part of life.... you could choose FREEWAYS listening my beauty man Harry :lol2::yeah:... (he, he, he looks like my father young...oh boy...the father model again, lol) Need to run, run run to the next challenge! Love you till then, stay happy and....live your life .....loved! :heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat
  14. zuzi

    Tuesday 26th of January

    Good evening my dear..... today I needed and prayed for some concrete feedback for my "feelling" suppositions... and unfortunately I had them.... is again ....what a mess.... And one by one, information come to me, not because I tried and work on it to find them, but just becuase is how it is to be...is KARMA..lol.... I said....late in the night.... "please help me...I need out of here". Is the first time when I asked help for my self.... for my mediocrity.........is to high, lol, I never dreamed at it, I never wished it....my normality is not THE NORMALITY, that people play with....... Simplicity in thoughs and fellings in behaviors and goals.... why to be simple is so hard???? My anxiety high again, I could not breath..... I was a PIECE, a damn freaking PIECE beetwen worlds, groups and interests... ...without friends, with people scarred about me ....so scarred that they say "soory" or play bad games behind instead to try to talk... We create "leaders" because we need them....is the most ugly truth that I was face with in all my life....we create minorities because we need them.....we use them.... is very very sad.... Is nothing to talk..... I badly need my "mediocrity" back, lol, I promise that I will say YES SIR, YES MAM, even to the janitor or cooking aide, I will look down, not because I am afraid of you, but because I am a shame of my ashame. I will try to not talk to much because my english is harsh, my background too much, and much more than anything I REFUSED, to have to try, to think or to please MY NEETWORK! "Good friends" said... Zuzi you are down...TRUE... Zuzi CHOOSED, to be down, because she could not please! I drove a lot today.....the nurses from all over need a good GPS... ....THE GOOD THINKS ARE HAPPEN LIKE THAT.... in 1 mile make right and keep right.... next exit in 0.5 miles, make a short left and keep left...the nurses need to know the GOOD NORMAL path. But who cares, why to care....????? I am the ZUZI, the normality .....is how you define it! I wish to skate... I can't... breath...
  15. zuzi

    Tuesday 26th of January

    Ay aya ya, wake up and back to life.... Enjoy Australia day! Driving again here, I think that I start to like it on freeways, he, he, he. Yesterday I was surprising looking at my speed... OMG...slow down! Memories come from the past...people need help....is not about me this time.... is scarry frightening scarry, I am just curious when and how this mess will be done... Enjoy your day try to keep your mind clean and on normal nursing logical path, to be!
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