This week I learnt:
-As much as I like having a lot of downtime between cases on weekends (I may have one case for a whole day and spend 9 hours finding something to do, and then 4 very busy cases that take up 9 hours the next day), I find myself getting anxious that my manager will pay a surprise visit and will cut back my hours. I am probably on the top of the pay scale in the whole department because of the weekend differentials, and I don't want to look like a drain on the department.
-At the same time, I don't like floating to other floors. My old floor has become depressing, and the med-surg floors are even worse. I definitely don't miss doing direct patient care for 12+ hours every day. I like caring for patients in short bursts, and then sending them either home or back to the floor.
-Hmmm, maybe I should change my hours, but not cut it back so much that i lose income. I don't want my manager to be the one to dictate my new hours though.
Alright enough of that.
-I also learnt this week I might be out of my league in the DNP program I am attending. There are a lot of people way smarter than me, and very successful in nursing informatics already. I don't know if I can do this. I've been trying to get an informatics job for almost a year now, and I am going absolutely nowhere. And I feel like I am not going to be able to complete the DNP degree if I can't find a relevant project to complete. I should probably quit the program until I can get into the field.