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  1. chenoaspirit, my psychiatrist gave me a tip in dealing with painful memories, like your little Jasmine's screaming. OK, now remember another sound that Jasmine made when she was happy and go to that place. Every time you have that sad thought, plug in the happy time.

    Don't blame yourself. It isn't your fault. Animals have shorter life spans than we do, and as long as your heart is beating it will always hurt to lose one. You loved that baby until the minute she died. And she knows it.

    I can only hope that we are all so lucky when our times come. . . . . :specs:

  2. Angelfire, don't get bogged down in this stuff. If you aren't baring body parts, your clothes are fine. You are so much more than clothes.

    From a wise counselor -- when we change, it makes those around us very uncomfortable. Especially, when we change for the better. When those around us become uncomfortable, they act in a way to keep us in our old pattern. (Translation: You are growing, they are not.)

    It seems to be about control. :specs:

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    I have a little fellow whose farts could peel paint off the wall. He outgrew it after his intestinal parasites were resolved and his intestine was less sensitive.

    Moogie, can you find KMR (Kitten Milk Replacement)? It is in our grocery store and most feed stores. This works great on these little ones. It won't improve the diarrhea, but it will pack on the weight.

  4. i've heard geritol is better than those energy drinks out there...

    that it's quite the pick-me-up.



    It doesn't have the kick that it used to, Leslie.

  5. Georgetown, Tx. It is 26 miles north of Austin, the state capitol.

    I grew up in a small town called Pflugerville. The road looked a lot like the one that herring showed us.

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    The commute is about 24 miles on country roads. Very little highway driving, which is lethal around here.

    Thank you gentlemen for the kind words of support! They are much appreciated.

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    OM gosh! I've found a part time nursing opportunity in a nearby town. It is for a clinical research nurse in a family practice setting. The advertisement is for LVN, to train, so I hope that they won't mind if they don't have to train me. :lol2: Since leaving home health, I haven't seen any jobs like this.

    I have sent my letter of interest, resume via craigslist, where the job was posted. While I am enjoying my leisure days, I am too young to retire, according to today's standards.

    I thought that when I reached 56, I would get all the old people discounts. But they raised the age for senior citizens, just when I get there. Of course, AARP is still there. (Wow, I feel better already)

    I hate that 50 is the new 30 stuff. I already did that! To think that I would have to experience those years again is more than I can take. Who has the energy to do all that stuff again?

    Well, I need to take a dose of Geritol. Thanks for listening.


  8. Recently received the old yearly eval. It was very apparent, they were based on peer evaluations. I find this to be extremely unprofessional of management. I have always found peer evals can be extremely biased. Have never agreed with doing them on anyone due to this fact.

    Overall, it was good. HOWEVER, I was found deficit in one area. Organization and prioritizing. One issue which is, however, a significant area of nursing. After 22 years of nursing, NOW there is an issue? I can honestly say, I do NOT believe it to be a deficit!! I was so disgusted in the evaluation process itself, I really didn't wish to give a retort since the manager does not know our true performance. Just will play along and develop a "plan of action".


    And one wonders why less and less are going into this so called profession. :bugeyes:

    MsILLRN, this is what it has become. No wonder new grads feel thrown under the bus.

    Twenty-five years ago, I was hired as charge nurse 3-11 at a city county hospital. Human resources conducted classes teaching all new CNs how to complete performance reviews. But it isn't employed in this work environment.

    Retorting to the manager would have only given the peer group more ammo to say that you are 'overly emotional' or 'defensive.' Peer group evals have the potential to be deadly. I have had several reviews by incoming managers who had never worked with me. Management by hearsay.

    Poor managers use evaluations as leverage. What if you received praise and asked for more money? Rather than answer that, no praise is offered. I agree with your assessment of poor management, but no management is closer to the truth.

    I am sorry that this has happened to you.

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    "terahertz waves are the radiation that fills the slot in the electromagnetic spectrum between microwaves and the infrared. terahertz waves pass through non-conducting materials such as clothes , paper, wood and brick and so cameras sensitive to them can peer inside envelopes, into living rooms and "frisk" people at distance."



    okay, so if i understand this correctly, these checkpoints expose me to something that is hotter than an infrared lamp, but not as hot as a microwave oven. but only for a short time.


    btw, that dog idea is really good. some of the dogs used for this type of security are 'less threatening' dogs, like labs and smaller dogs. i bet a bomb dog would have gone right for that man's underpants. wouldn't that have been funny! :yeah:



  10. This is a touchy topic. Radiation is cumulative, which is why there is concern about frequent exposure to medical imaging. The quality of the purported TSA images seen online shows good detail. Certainly, there is radiation exposure. Include that with the expected life time exposure to determine risk of radiation vs benefit of imaging.

    It is good to know how much radiation is involved with TSA checkpoints. I'd not considered this issue, so many thanks for providing thought provoking information (again!). TSA's assessment of risk is based on risk for bombing between, for instance, Austin, TX, and San Francisco, CA. Without seeming jaded, I seriously doubt that my long term cancer risk enters their collective mind.

    I worked in radiation oncology for some years and wore a radiation exposure badge. It made me conscious of how much radiation is delivered to a person during a lifetime. This will be an interesting discussion.

    Thank you again, anxiouspatient! :specs:

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    One night, I cared for the widow of a former president, so the Secret Service agents were at the nurses station all night long. She had an IV, so I checked it and she slept peacefully. Sometimes she came to visit other patients, always with Secret Service. Tall guys, dark suits, talking to their shoulders. :specs:

  12. Your writing shows some of the deepest pain that can be described. Last year, one of my family members attempted suicide on Super Bowl Sunday.

    Please let us know how your family and you (!) are doing. We pray for your family to have peace. We pray for your BIL's soul. Please, forgive yourself. In a free will universe, some people inevitably make the wrong choice. :crying2:

  13. I am amazed at the power of prayer. Yesterday, I had a HH recertification visit for a beautiful lady with extreme mental health challenges. I performed my 'skilled intervention' and then sat beside the patient to decide whether she wanted to be discharged or recertified. She anticipated hospitalization in another town for mental health intervention.

    We talked about her course of care and she told me her story. Her runaway daughter, a motherless grandchild, and her own unending torment from mental illness. So much pain!

    What is a nurse to do? What indeed IS a nurse to do? Hmmm. . . after asking permission, we joined hands and said the Lord's Prayer. Her husband sobbed gently between words: "It sure says a lot more than I remembered it saying." As I left the home, he thanked me again for coming to see them that day. I asked him not to report me for the prayer.

    Today, the patient called my DON to request that I come back as her nurse. Then she told him that her daughter had returned and was going to the bed in the psych hospital that had been reserved for my patient. After being missing for 3 months, the daughter called her mother sometime after our visit yesterday. Chance? Probably. But I believe something else happened.

    The joy of faith is to know that the sun is always shining, even if I can only see the dark clouds. My faith is that the Supreme Being or Higher Consciousness doesn't want us to cry and grieve. My faith is that as a nurse, help will come from unexpected places, when it is most needed.

    Thanks to all readers for reading. As I have matured in nursing, I can do the procedures and write the policies. But I am humbled daily by the beauty of the human spirit. And the mystery of our world. :paw:


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