Recently started a new job in the ER working nights, might I add that I :redbeathe it! I'm having a hard time finding the time to spend with my bf of 9 months. I don't get it. I work 3 nights a week sometimes 4 from 7p to 7a. He also works nights, but from 9p to 3a, 5 to 6 nights a week and 2 days a week from 7a to 5p. His schedule is rough and, well, we NEVER spend time together.
I've felt as if maybe he doesn't "want" to spend any qt with me and it's ruining everything we've built so far. He manages to make time for sporting events like softball league and the occasional live NFL game too. Where do I fit in? I also stick to my work sleep schedule usually when I'm off, so I don't get out of whack when it's time to go back to work. So, basically I'm up until 8am and sleep most of the day. I'm on break from school (ns starts may '11). I can't imagine what this will be like then.
We don't live together, btw. But we only live
We've had numerous discussions about this and nothing seems to change. He knows how I'm feeling, I keep reminding him. It's ruining our relationship. It feels like I'm the only one making any effort to see the other person. And the old saying actions speak louder than words constantly haunts me.
Every time I think about this, I get super sad and wonder if we're ever gonna survive.