I've been a nurse for about 3 years and I work in rehab/ med-surg with past experience in neuroscience. I'm overall a happy person, but theres this one thing I can't get past.
In Sept. 2013 my childhood pet of 12 years died suddenly. She was a lovely German Shephard with a very vibrant personality. She got really thin and lost bladder control and muscle tone over a matter of months, and all of a sudden she started having seizures and nystagmus. My parents took her to the vet who said she was showing all the signs of a brain tumor. They decided to have her put to sleep then. I wasn't able to be there, because of work. I have no way of knowing if she was in pain, or scared, or even if she knew what was going on.
I can't get past the thought of her just not exsiting anymore. I'm a Christian (not a great one, I find myself at work more often than at church on Sundays) and I've always been told by church leaders that pet's don't go to Heaven. My parents fervently believe that they do. My husband believes that they do. I have no idea what to believe. What do you believe and why? I basically reaching around in the dark for answers; I can't seem to let her go or find closure without figuring this out.
I'm sorry if these are just the silly musings of the little girl in me, unable to grow up and move on. I'm an adult, and there's so much I don't know. I miss her so much.