why me?

  1. for all of you that read this originally.......i have edited it. things appear much better now........and i am feeling better...........certainly not perfect.....there are still some issues...and thoughts in my head about some things........things i really can't discuss.....(just being honest)......i thank everyone.....who has tried to say hi....and/or offer their help and/or ear......it means a lot to me. maybe one day i can repay or help some of you! thanks

    Last edit by CEN35 on Jul 29, '01
  2. 11 Comments

  3. by   Nursz-R-Awsm
    Wow, Rick. I don't know you, but I do know Jesus. You said in your other post "nothing anybody can say or not say will make it better" but I will say a prayer for you anyway.
    I will go by what you have posted...

    I will ask that you have joy

    I will ask that you have peace

    I will ask that you have clarity in your present situation/circumstance

    I will ask that you have renewed strenth to get thru whatever it is you are dealing with right now
  4. by   debbyed

    What would you say to a patient who came in off the street saying what you have written here. Darlin' you need a vacation and you need to seriously take an account of what is right in your life, what you give to people that other's can not, what you may be depriving that one special patient, friend, stranger, loved one of if you were not there. I'm not a particulary religious person but I do no that we all have a reason for being here and sometimes we don't understand those reasons until we get to the end of our rope. You need an ear whether it be a friend or a professional, you need to remember that everyone of us is special and that every new day brings both joy and sadness. You are important...to us and to others. Help yourself Rick, help yourself rediscover those things in life that bring joy, that bring meaning. Help yourself get the help you need. Please Rick, find the road back; to us, to those who love you, and to those who will love you.

  5. by   moonchild20002000

    I understand where you are coming from.......hang in there....if you want to talk you can get me on ICQ..........had you on my mind
  6. by   RNforLongTime

    Hey, I hope that you read the pm I just sent you. I mean it!! If you need to talk I am more than willing to bend my ear! I'll check back later and in the mean time I will say thousands of prayers for you!

  7. by   Jenny P
    Rick, your topic heading needs an answer that I received about 16-18 years ago from a patient.
    I'd gone to work directly from a doctors' appointment and was totally bummed by what the doc told me. So I was feeling really sorry for myself; then got assigned to the sickest patient on the unit. While caring for her (a patient I was close to both in age and emotionally), I asked her if she ever asked herself or God "Why ME?" Her reply stunned me: "No, I ask God why NOT me?"
    Here I was, feeling sorry for my little neck injury, and she's laying there with her leg wide open with a fasciotomy, an artificial heart, and multiple drips, trying to stay alive to get a heart transplant; and she said "why NOT me?"
    Her theory was that no one has a special shield to protect them from bad things happening to them; and we learn from all of our experiences. We can feel sorry for ourselves, or we can take the bad stuff, deal with it, and grow as a person both spiritually and emotionally. She truely believed that we all have a purpose in life, and that the Lord will help us.

    Life isn't easy for most of us; but to leave messages like this on this website makes us worry about you and your well being. Please be aware that you are loved; we all make mistakes; and in the big picture, no one else remembers anyone elses' mistakes because we are all worrying about our own.
    Please take care of yourself. Although we don't personally know you, there are many people here who do care about you.

  8. by   CEN35
    it didnt post yesterday........i am doing better today........much better.......there seems to actually be something worth looking fwd too now......and things are better. however, sometimes? omg angela....(rileycat) you sound kinda like me?
  9. by   Rileycat

    I am glad you're back. My offer still stands...if you ever need to talk...just email me.
  10. by   CEN35
    thanks for the offer angela, it is appreciated. i think sometimes though......i am just to slow at getting things through my head......i have one of the best listeners in the world
  11. by   debbyed
    Glad you are back. You had me worried
  12. by   realnursealso/LPN
    Glad you are feeling better, friend. You know where to find me if you want to talk. Hang in there...see you around.
  13. by   CEN35
    Thanks Coll............but it doesn't and wont help. I have tried everything......I'm in a spiral........and near the bottom.