Rick, your topic heading needs an answer that I received about 16-18 years ago from a patient.
I'd gone to work directly from a doctors' appointment and was totally bummed by what the doc told me. So I was feeling really sorry for myself; then got assigned to the sickest patient on the unit. While caring for her (a patient I was close to both in age and emotionally), I asked her if she ever asked herself or God "Why ME?" Her reply stunned me: "No, I ask God why NOT me?"
Here I was, feeling sorry for my little neck injury, and she's laying there with her leg wide open with a fasciotomy, an artificial heart, and multiple drips, trying to stay alive to get a heart transplant; and she said "why NOT me?"
Her theory was that no one has a special shield to protect them from bad things happening to them; and we learn from all of our experiences. We can feel sorry for ourselves, or we can take the bad stuff, deal with it, and grow as a person both spiritually and emotionally. She truely believed that we all have a purpose in life, and that the Lord will help us.
Life isn't easy for most of us; but to leave messages like this on this website makes us worry about you and your well being. Please be aware that you are loved; we all make mistakes; and in the big picture, no one else remembers anyone elses' mistakes because we are all worrying about our own.
Please take care of yourself. Although we don't personally know you, there are many people here who do care about you.