Well......gonna call my doctor tomorrow....

  1. You guys are my second family so I wanted to share this with you.....my husband and I discussed it Friday night and I decided it was for the best to make an appointment with my doctor. My grandmother had mental problems(of course back then you didn't diagnose them...just lived with them......I know of them because she ran off and left her kids many times and even tried to kill them all in a house fire) and my mother has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have been through alot in my life and have been on antidepressants, but have been off of them for about 8 months now. The problem is that for the last few weeks(not long after mom got back) I have been getting really down. I have been very emotional and hard to live with.....can't sleep at night half the time and snapping at the kids and hubby. It's a cycle.....can't sleep....get tired easily....don't clean or whatever.....feel like a loser because I don't clean....cry and get more depressed. Anyway....this has been going on for a while and I broke down and talked to hubby the other night( I am a pretty good actress and hide my feelings pretty good so he didn't know how depressed I actually was) and I am going to call the doctor tomorrow to see about starting back on my meds. I know it's the right thing to do and hopefully they can kick in before stress from Nursing school gets too bad....anyway......thansk for the support I always get from you guys....it means so much to me at times like this.....it helps to have someone to spill to......((((HUGS))))
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  3. by   SmilingBluEyes
    I wish you well and hope you find the answers you SEEK! GOOD FOR YOU FOR TAKING ACTION where needed! Were we all that wise soon enough! Best of luck!
  4. by   LasVegasRN
    Kudos to you Robin for doing this! It's well known that a lot of folks here on the BB suffer from different illnesses that are helped by anti-depressant therapy, it's nothing to be ashamed of.
  5. by   Robin61970
    It took me years to seek help though......I realized it when my current husband told me I was pushing him away constantly and that he thought there was a problem.....we were dating at the time. I made an appointment at the doctor and he went with me she interviewed me....then spoke with him about my behavior. That said volumes about how much he cared about me....he was really scared I would leave him because of my issues with depression. Went off the meds one time when I lost my insurance and after two weeks he borrowed money from his mom to get them,LOL.....I still laugh about that one. I actually feel I waited too long this time, but I really didn't want to go back on meds....my family doesn't deserve the b***h I am being though...ya know?? Not their fault and I don't want to come apart at the seams in Nursing I......so......Thanks for your reply!
  6. by   Stargazer
    Your husband sounds like a sweetie Robin, Good for you for being proactive.
  7. by   Robin61970
    I am very very lucky to have my husbadn(it's his family I could do without,LOL). He is very supportive of me and my dream to go to school and treats my children as his own. I quit a job making 13.73 an hour to go to school full time and he supported that.....not many men would do that.......he still does half the housework and cooking because he says school is my full time job. I am very proud of him, but lately he doesn't feel it or know it.....I have to change that......and I will....thanks Stargazer.....
  8. by   rncountry
    About 4 years ago I was fired from a job after threatening to report patient abuse the facility was trying to cover up. My license ended up being threated as well, long story that I won't go into here, but suffice it to say that I ended up in a depression. Never have had anything like it, could have cheerfully lived my life in the closet or simply sleeping. It took my husband telling me that he thought I really should go see someone. At first I was quite sarcastic about it back to him, asked him if he didn't think I could handle things. And was quite shocked when he said yes, then he hugged me and said it is not a crime for a nurse to need help too you know. I was on an antidepressant for several months and I really say thank God for it.
    So glad you are going to the doc, and have a supportive husband. That in itself can mean the world. Having had a rotten ass the first time, I really appreciate this one.
  9. by   Robin61970
    You do appreciate a good one after having had a creep........
  10. by   DIPLOMATICRN4HIRE
    I do hope that You get the help that you need. It takes alot to recognize the signs and symptoms of the illnesses. You should applaude yourself with taking action.
    Zoe
  11. by   hapeewendy
    I am very proud of you and happy to count you among my friends robin...
    you are doing the absolute right thing in talking to your doctor (but you already know that!)
    its so hard for us to admit that we may be battling some depression, sadly still such a stigma with that, just the other day I was talking to my mom and was telling her that I was feeling so down about things and she pawned it off as the "working over christmas blues" if only she knew...
    anyway thats not the point , I made a revelation the other day that I need to change this life of mine and I am going to start doing just that....
    I KNOW you will do so well with all your endeavors and wish you nothing but good luck , you know that we are here for you and I personally am cheering you on from miles away!!!!
    *hugs*
  12. by   OBNURSEHEATHER
    Originally posted by SmilingBluEyes
    GOOD FOR YOU FOR TAKING ACTION
    DITTO!

    I find it highly commendable when someone takes care of their own mental health!
    It's the most important thing you've got!

    Keep us posted Robin!

    Heather
  13. by   Mkue
    Good Luck Robin
  14. by   Sleepyeyes
    (((((robin))))) i have so much respect for you right now, to be able to talk about this. you have no idea how many of us will read your words and feel encouraged to take action because you did. :kiss

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