Good night morning anyone! Well is still not sleep yet... don't ask me why... because I cold not share nothing here on this so public site, lol. Is just life...... my creapy woanderfull nursing life. Thanks God that my granny teach me... when you have felling that everything is not logical at all... pray...God will let you know why and how! My fellings at this time is that everything is going round around beetwen money and values, but I am even soo tired even to think...
And for sure that is very frustating, is an unsual model ....for others... but for me, that I came from another country and I was face to face with THIS type of model for so many years... IT is not at all unknown, looool. Where you are granny to see the unbeliveble????
. Is hard...is like I live again the same life but this time speaking english..... old sentences using then are very good here now.... old characters from then are here now ... the same the same.......we share the same networks, resources, and control style... everything is the same. Even "aunt Mary" is here...lol
I am a rarity for them...lol..in them life super controled.... Zuzi nursing life and decisions, Zuzi's life, Zuzi's lovers, Zuzi's dancing time or gurls friends, lol anything related Zuzi keep them alive... making them able to show them self and others how good they are comparing with Zuzi.
And I have 1001 heads that think (one smartest than another..and all of them could make assesments, lol), 1001 people who comand, 1001 people who verify, 1001 people who colect information 1001 stalkers, 1001 spies and 1001 macho men (for them i have some copy of my Tanga prints lol) and all around to one little foreign Zuzi, damn it.
I am a So freak big personality !
For you my dears my sweety ones ... is a song...
Mo-Do - Eins, Zwei, Polizei
Now is 4.30... am.... I need to sleep to be able to fuction, my DD will see her mom a few (manipulative Zuzi..he, he, he....IS FOR REAL).... and again ...will be the same....
How many hours did you sleep?
Did you eat today?
Your family was ok?
You are happy ?
I am happy too... because YOU are happy!