My your plate is definitely full! I'm sooo sorry to hear about your grandfather, your cousin, and the distressing news of those around you..
I don't call relating what is going on around as being whinning. You need to get out somewhere, and have some down home, honest to goodness fun!
This is much too much sadness for anyone, or any place to concentrate on for any length of time. Take some time for yourself, and your love ones. I know that's a difficult thing to do, with everything that is going on. As I can totally relate with how you're feeling here.
I haven't had half the distrubing news you have, and I thought I was losing it this past week! For a min...I thought it was the menopaual thing wrecking havoc with my emotions. But I discovered I wasn't the only one.
But talking about how I was feeling, helped a lot. So if you need to PM, and talk some more...don't hesitate:kiss My prayers are added to yours for the safe return, of your cousin to your family soon, and in complete health.