This is it......

  1. I know I'm going to be verbally assaulted for posting this here, but you know what? I can handle it.

    Today is the day. As many of you know, my partner and I have had a tumultuous relationship, and we've been living together, just being comfortable and not wanting to move, for awhile. Well, today I'm leaving.

    This is both easier and harder than I thought it would be. For one thing, I'm leaving this relationship with very, very little (less to pack). For another, its been 'over' for a long time... it would sort of come back together for a moment or two and we'd be happy and then she'd remind me of why I wanted to leave in the first place. She always threatened to leave. I never did. I very calmly told her yesterday that I'm leaving this weekend.

    We've been together for 6 years (since I was 19 years old), so this is definitely leaving a big chunk of my life behind. I think it will be better for my physical and emotional health.

    So today I am packing up my stuff and my 2 dogs and gettin' out of dodge. I'm upset that things didn't work out, because I tried really hard to be accomodating and understanding and love her the best I knew how. It still didn't work.

    So thanks in advance for any supportive comments.
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  3. by   cmggriff
    I think it was Neil Sedaka who said "Breaking up is hard to do."
    Relationships always seem to be over for some time before we actually end them. Good luck. Gary
  4. by   indeed
    Rebecca....don't have any way to say what I am thinking, but you are on my mind. I wish you the best. Be well.

  5. by   delirium
    Thanks, Gary. I really appreciate that.
  6. by   shay
    Oh, man I'm so sorry. And if anyone 'verbally assaults' you for posting this here, don't worry....Vegas will hold my purse . We got your back, sweetie.
  7. by   delirium
    Thanks, Shay. I'm usually not so whiny but this is hitting me harder than I thought it would.

    Anyway... need to go get some stuff done....

    Thanks for having my back, here. I'm still planning our trip to Africa.... I can't wait to see the giraffe in its natural environment. I love to watch them gallop on the discovery channel.
  8. by   Love-A-Nurse
    rebecca, i just want you to know that i am concerned about you. (((((hugs)))))
  9. by   misti_z
    Rebecca you know this is going to be hard for you, but you are a very strong woman. You will be okay, and will find love again.

    Thinking of you.....
  10. by   Cindy_A
    I think you've known this was coming for a long time, and now you're doing what needs to be done. I'm sure it will be difficult after 6 years, but you can do it. Good Luck, hope all goes well.
  11. by   Mkue

    If you think this is the best thing for "you" than you re doing the right thing.

    Take care today and remember we are here for you!:angel2:
  12. by   Lausana
    Originally posted by delirium
    I'm usually not so whiny but this is hitting me harder than I thought it would.
    Don't think you sound whiny at all...actually pretty empowered...

    I'll be thinking of you as you leave today :kiss I hope everything goes smoothly...Where are going to be "leaving" to?

    Good luck to you and the doggies!
    Last edit by Lausana on Sep 7, '02
  13. by   BadBird

    Believe me, the hard part is over, you finally realized that your relationship is over and are smart enough and strong enough to move on. It took me 18 years to do that, it was the best decision I ever made. Good for you, don't think of losing 6 years, think of all the wonderful years ahead of you. I was ready to live the rest of my life alone rather than stay in a bad marriage 1 more sec. I never regretted my decision. Just view each day as a adventure to be discovered, enjoy yourself and be proud that you were able to move on.
  14. by   sunnygirl272
    reb...i know this has been pending, proud of you for making it a reality....there will doubtless be moments that you ponder returning..just gotta remind yourself of why you are a beautiful, strong, intelligent woman, and deserve someone who can appreciate that and be good to you, and not be manipulative and emothionally blackmail you...
    i will be thinking of you often today.