When I saw the title to this thread I was paranoid that you were probably my neibor talking about me.
I have been on vacation the last few weeks. I had my 24 year old daughter house sit....water my flower beds and feed my animals. I will not go into detail of all the events that occured in my home while I was gone.....the end result is this letter that I am giving her in the morning.
I have had much time to stop and think clearly about choices. Somewhere along the line my focus changed. It changed from trying to teach you about making positive choices with your life.......to learning how to make positive choices about my own life.
I CHOOSE TO NO LONGER BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR LIFE OR YOUR CHOICES.
I wish you the very best and will pray for you to have the strength to make a wonderful world for yourself and your son.
I am no longer responsible for feeding you, clothing you or giving you money. I am no longer a source for you to use to do your laundry. You will no longer have any control over my life. It is apparent you do not respect my life or my home. You do not like being around me .......you need me. You put up with my "moods" in order to get your needs met.
You are choosing to live a life I do not understand. It has been going on for longer than I would like to admit to myself. It starts getting better.....then back to the old ways WE go. Your world you have been choosing is not a world I choose to be sucked into any longer. I see now how much of my life is spent in that world.
A world of being a victim is not a place I choose to live and have not lived in for over 20 years now. I can not share your victim role with you. I find I am surrounded in my own home with a life you choose. The roller coaster of drama in your and your friends lives is a world I do not choose One event after another is a constant source of confusion..emotion.... and money. You will not violate my home or my life any longer...in the manner that you did in the last 10 days. Crisis without responsibility or ownership is not a life I choose to endorse for your.
I have a world .......a world that is based on being responsible for my actions. A world where I am responsible for a husband, a son, a home and a job. These responsibilities are my focus now. I hope and pray that at some point you choose to share in MY world. I simply not longer choose to share in yours.
I simply no longer choose to share in your world of being a victim.....depending on others to meet your needs.
Every decision I have made in my life has been in the best interest of my 3 kids. This is one of them. You are smart and I know you know this is what is best or you.
I have always gotten over it in the past and have reverted back to being your care taker. I hope I have the strength to fight this weakness in myself for your sake. There is one difference in the way I feel this time....... that may get me through it . I think if I revert back to being your caretaker again it is not because I am weak or nurturing....... it is because I a m plain out stupid. Stupidity is something I will not label myself with. I have fought my whole life to prove to the world that I am not stupid. I wish you the best with your plight with the world......to prove the same.
I need my house key back ASAP
I would like to see Hayden every tuesday from 1 oclock to 5 oclock....more if possible.
I hope the neibors forgive my lack of judgement....to allow someone I thought would behave as an responsible adult, that ended up behaving in such an inconsiderate ======manner.