Quote from z's playa
When you figure it out let me know. You are not alone
Are you ok?
((((((Thanks for asking Z)))))))) :icon_hug: I have many stressors in my life right now, and as anal as I've always been about having it altogether, I'm speechless as to where to go from here, what to do about it all...........:stone
I've had three different nursing jobs
since November 2003 that I resigned from in less than five months time (total) because I'm sick and tired of being played like a fiddle on schedules that are no longer acceptable for my life right now. I'm sick and tired of being emotionally battered, and physically abused when working a nursing job. I'm very protective of my nursing license to the point that I don't want to just be a warm body running up and down the hall being a flunkee for everyone that yells in my direction with no respect attached to them wanting a piece of me for this or that. I'm tired of not having control of my day to day life.
I soooooooo want the madness to stop!
Outside of hunting for a job that fits the life I want for myself each day, I'm stressed over my personal life. I'm married to a man who abandoned me over a year ago who lives overseas and won't give me a divorce because he is confused. I've been alone for this entire year plus a few months without dating, no fun in my life, and I'm clinging to my kids and grandkids for the last bit of hope I need to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I thank God for my kids and grandkids, too. They are the reason I get up every morning, and try and find something funny to laugh about each day.
I have anxiety attacks because my monetary funds are so low that I can't pay my bills this coming week. I'm tired of catching up only to get behind again. I can't seem to hang on to a job even for the money. I'm depressed big time. I just started back on Celexa a few weeks ago, and do notice a slight improvement. But I'm so not happy with myself for not being able to land a job that fits me right now. :stone
I've applied at family clinics, Borders bookstore, and tomorrow I'm applying at other non nursing jobs. I've done so much in 18 years of nursing that I am easily dissatisfied with the way nurses are being treated today. I want no part of hospital nursing anymore, yet I miss patient care. I can't handle the madness of it all. I just can't do it anymore. :stone
Well.........that's a taste of what I'm trying to cope with right now. It's been rougher than rough. I want a break! I want a financial break for a change. I'm so tired of the constant struggle to keep up with everthing my husband left me with. I get no support from him. How do I divorce a man who lives in a foreign country so I can go on with my life?
Sorry so depressing, but that's the jest of it with me these days. Now I need to finish out my cry.......