Hello dear Friends.
Got back form the ER about an hour ago. Mutti suffered multiple posterior/lateral rib fxs., and a fx'd ileac wing. Initial thoughts were also a fx'd hip, as well as a punctured lung, but after lengthy review of the xrays, etc., they found these to be not the case. Thank you, God !!!
The ER doc was going to admiti her, and then find placement for rehab in a local NH,
but I pleaded with him to let us take her home. He asked if we had someone at home all times, and I assured him we did. She is not to walk for at least a week, and they placed a foley in her so she wouldn't have to get up to pee. Strict bedrest for one week, along with an order for PT for gentle ROM to upper and lower extremities. Mutti appears to have minimal pain except when she take s a deep breath. Her B/P in the ambulance was 220/137... my heart was in my throat.. it stayed up like that in the ER for the first hour, then slowly started coming down again. Right now it's 170/80, so that's definately an improvement. She of course has no memory of falling off the porch in her W/C.. and can't understand why she can't get up. They gave her IV Toradol in the ambulance, and now she's to take lortab q 4-6 hrs prn.
Will have to move her BSC out of her room, she's so used to getting up and sitting on it to pee in the middle of the night as she needs to. Also hoping she doesn't find and fool with the foley, as she jsut doesn't remember form one minute to the next.
I, of course, am ridden with guilt. Had her all dressed and cutsified, pretty hair and earrings, necklace, took pics before we left, took her out on the porch in her lightweight W/C, pressed the upper handles (brakes) and even turned her sideways away from the stairs.. jsut in case. Turned around and walked back to the front door for a split second, just to shut it. I heard a scream and turned and looked to see her W/C halfway down the cement stair, tipped over on its side, and poor Mutti flipped over the brick side bars of the stairs... she crashed full force into the hard brick on her chest and side, was hanging half over the side ledges of the stairs. Somehow, one of the handle brakes had snapped open, causing a wheel to turn and begin rolling..... right off the stairs.
I have cried until I have no tears left.... just that horrible, all encompassing feeling of guilt is all that's left in me. I should have locked down the lower brakes as well... but since I placed her sideways, and had the upper ones locked (so I thought) I never dreamt this would happen.
I'm just grateful I was able to bring her home. I wouldn't sleep a wink if she had gone to a NH.. she jsut wouldn't have understood, would have been so lost and confused.... I couldn't bear it. She's in her bed now, with Minnie at her side. She acts as if nothing had happened... what a blessing Alzheimer CAN be at times.
As for me... I'm a total wreck.. but feeling better than I did 3 hours ago.
Will keep ou updated. Want to thank tn for the thread, and Siri for being kind enough to pass the word on... and thank all of YOU for your thoughts and prayers. You all are simply the best, and I knew I could count on you.
Not exactly what we had planned for Mother's Day. It was to be sooooooooooooooo special today, for BOTH of us.. well, all THREE of us.. DD included. She had wrked so hard the past 2 days getting everything prepared, cleaned, up.. her first real family cookout on the porch. Wanted to take pics of the three of us "Mommas" together....
Oh my. What a nightmare this Mother's Day has been.
Love you guys.
We'll talk again later.