Pity Party

  1. Ok seriously now. I know this thread seems...uh....timely to probably Heather and Vegas, but this is serious shyt here. Serious. I've been on a roll of negativity and piss-azzness lately and it's only gotten worse.

    First of all, this new job of mine I am miserable in. Miserable. The doc is great but I just don't like the job. I'm not happy here, I feel isolated, it ain't fun. This was further confirmed when I found that Clinical Nurse Specialist position I was talking about for my old unit, where I know everyone, the manager, the whole persona of the unit! I had sent my resume in, also faxed it to the manager of the unit, and I spoke to her yesterday and she was not sure if they extended an offer to anyone. She knows they've interviewed 3 people though. She was sending my resume to someone and emailing them as well. Well today, I looked at the job postings again and the job has been removed. So that tells me, an offer has been made. And for some reason, my world just crashed. CRASHED.

    Everything is going WRONG. Just wrong. NOTHING is working out. I hate school, as now it seems like a joke as I can't even get a job utilizing all this new stuff I'm learning; my sister's living with me, Fattie keeps biting things, my dad, everything.. I'm sick of always being the UNlucky one, of always being a day late and a dollar short. When do I ever get a break?

    I know pity parties are bad and it's not like me to post this crap. But I HAD to get it out because I just feel like in such a slump. You don't even have to reply, honestly, just know that I'm in a piss-poor mood and it hasn't lifted in weeks. I don't anticipate it lifting anytime soon either. Just a fair warning.
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  3. by   Q.
    Oh, and what a laugh. The assistant just came in to my office as I was typing this and handed me my business cards. She then chanted: "you're legit, you're legit, so don't quit."

    No, she has no idea.
  4. by   shygirl
    [QUOTE]Originally posted by Susy K
    [B]Ok seriously now. I know this thread seems...uh....timely Heather and Vegas,


    Just Heather and Vegas? LOL ,Just kidding (really)
    Quit your job and find a new one.
    Shygirl
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  5. by   Q.
    Originally posted by shygirl
    Quit your job and find a new one.
    Shygirl
    . [/B]
    I am TRYING to do that, but it's not working!! (hence my pity-party).
  6. by   Brownms46
    Susy I know we don't see eye to eye on a lot of stuff...but I'm really sorry you didn't get the position. But do you think the reason it might have been removed was because they had found their candiate and that it might just may include you???

    OOooh if will help you feel better...you can tell me where to get off, or tell me know where to stick this...:chuckle. Or you can paste a screaming monster. or send me a scream a gram..and I won't say a word... I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and that if you continue pressing pass the storm you will succeed.
  7. by   Q.
    Originally posted by Brownms46
    But do you think the reason it might have been removed was because they had found their candiate and that it might just may include you???


    That's a nice thought, but I didn't get interviewed yet so the possibility of that is quite, LOW.

    OOooh if will help you feel better...you can tell me where to get off, or tell me know where to stick this...:chuckle. Or you can paste a screaming monster. or send me a scream a gram..and I won't say a word... I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and that if you continue pressing pass the storm you will succeed.

    Hmmm. Tempting.


    But I just can't.
  8. by   Mattigan
    Maybe YOU are the one who got the job...but if you didn't it's so you'll be in the position to accept a better one. I really feel for you. I've kinda been there. ... I actually dropped out of CNS program with just thesis data collection and evaluation and about 7 hours left. STUPID,STUPID ME.

    All this will pass. You can take it out on me , if you want. I'll help if I can.
  9. by   micro
    Suzy K-------------

    pity parties are all right.....as long as they don't last.......

    the job you are in, you will find out you love.........afterall.....

    or hang in there, baby

    another better one will present itself.....

    micro
  10. by   Q.
    Wow Mattigan. Really? You dropped out with so little to go?

    Actually, what will make me feel better is if Vegas or someone posts a beatin' the crap out of me smiliey, or something.

    Here's the other thing: on the job listings is a CNS job for our evil step sister inner city hospital. Old, high risk unit. BLECH. I liked the prospect of working with my OLD staff. I just bet they will try and stick me in THAT slot. Don't I sound like a spoiled brat?

    Someone HIT me, please.
  11. by   Stargazer
    Susy, I'm so sorry. And here I was reading some of the other threads thinking you were in such a sassy mood today!

    My impulse is to rush in with a lot of suggestions, but I don't think that's what you need right now. I'll just content myself with saying that we are here for you and you know you can come and vent and b*tch just as much as you want or need to. And that I have every confidence things will turn around for you soon, because you are too smart and focused and self-motivated and too great a person for them not to. Wish I were there to buy you a drink. (Unless we all wanna move that Vegas trip up by a few months!)

    Okay, I lied. One suggestion. Go find a kickboxing class somewhere. You sound like you need to hit something.
  12. by   LasVegasRN
    IT'S A SMALL WORLD, AFTER ALL!! oops, wrong song!!

    "The sun will come out, TOMORROW... la dee dee I can't remember how the rest of it goes... TOMORROWWWWW, come what mayyyyyy, TOMORROW, TOMORROW...."

    It will all work out, Suz. Don't even worry about it. Really.
  13. by   Brownms46
    Let me tell you a little story about the time I thought I had lost out on position I wanted so bad I could taste it! I was told if I didn't hear anything by a certain date...I didn't get it! I didn't hear from them on that date! I didn't hear from them for weeks afterwards. But you know what?? I ended up with the job...because I wanted it just that bad I refused to give up!

    I moved within easy commute to the place...I told everyone I was going to get the job...and there were people who looked at me like I had lost it! My own MIL told I was a fool...in soo many words. I mean she didn't come right out and say it...as you know what that would have caused...:chuckle. But what she did say amounted to the same thing!

    I will tell you the same thing my friends told me, as I fought to get this job in OR! "NEVER GIVE UP"! You won't believe the negotiating I had to do to get this job...and get it with an agency I trusted! You won't believe it...because most people thought it was over and done with! But I didn't give up...because people who believed in me, support me emotionally, and kicked me in the butt when I needed it to. And they refused to hear negative thoughts or words! Continue to BELIEVE in yourself and you will never go wrong! Ok I'm done.

    And just because you didn't interview...doesn't mean a thing. Somebody's references might not check out...or they maybe other things that disqualfy them...hang in there...your break is coming! For all you know your break may come from your being right where you..
    Last edit by Brownms46 on Nov 5, '02
  14. by   Mattigan
    Originally posted by Susy K
    Wow Mattigan. Really? You dropped out with so little to go?

    Don't I sound like a spoiled brat?

    Someone HIT me, please.
    1. Yes, I really did. Took incompletes one semester. Intended to finish those classes that summer and go back- Never happened. I could tell the long, sad story but it boils down to "I was stupid."

    2. No, you don't sound like a spoiled brat.

    3. Hitting you would not make you feel better and then that person would feel bad and you would feel worse and what for?

    It will be ok. I promise. I just don't know how soon.

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