My appt with the onc...

  1. Alright... since everyone has been so great and so supportive, I thought it incumbent upon me to update this board.
    I'm afraid it wasn't good news. I called poor Pappy and assaulted him with it first (thanks, chief).
    The cancer has definitely spread to the lymphatic system and to the brain (ha! no wonder I'm so jacked up). The doc wants to do a brain biopsy to determine the extent of disease. Did blood work and x-rays today, will find out the results soon.
    So I'm left with a tough decision to make, and I'm not sure what to do. The whole point of me avoiding treatment this time was to eliminate any/all invasive procedures (I'm so tired of being cut/burned/poisoned), and this is a purely diagnostic procedure but terribly invasive.
    I'm doing one of those full body scans for any other disseminated tumors, and we'll take it from there. I'm going to go for all the labs/scans/etc. I can before I acquiesce and agree to the sucking out my brain thing.
    That's where I am, now. Thanks everyone for your support.
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  2. 64 Comments

  3. by   NurseGirlKaren
    Hang in there, Rebecca. You're in my thoughts.
  4. by   OBNURSEHEATHER
    I've been staring at this blank reply screen for at least 5 minutes. Reb sweetie.... I love ya. Anything at all... ever! I'm here for you no matter what.

    Heather
  5. by   Pretzlgl
    I'm with Heather - staring at the screen thinking of what to say. You are in my prayers.

    Beth
  6. by   shay
    Rebecca, honey, I'm praying for you. I just can't believe this.
  7. by   Lausana
    I'm not sure how you're doing it, but your calmness and strength blows me away, Rebecca.

    Ditto the rest...we're here...I guess that's what to say.
  8. by   vashka25
    You're in my thoughts, prayers, and heart.

    ~Dawn~
  9. by   finallyRN
    Rebecca- I am so very sorry to hear your news. My prayers will continue to be with you. What a horrible thing to be happening to such a wonderful person.
  10. by   Rustyhammer
    You know whatever your decision you will find support here.
    My father started to fight his CA and then made the choice to just stop as the cure was harder than the disease.
    I am waiting to run into him again anytime. He should be running around in about a 6 year old body about now.
    Be strong (I know you will).
    Fight hard.
    We are all here for you.
    -Russell
  11. by   kittyw
    Gosh... I don't know what to say. I can't imagine what you're going through - yet you seem so calm. (((((hugs))))) Sending prayers your way.... please let us know if we can do anything else for you.
  12. by   Stargazer
    Rebecca, also staring at the computer screen. Having a hard time finding anything coherent to say.

    This is the suckiest suck that ever sucked. Your strength and humor in the face of this news are impressive as hell. But please don't feel that you have to always present the strong, in-control face to us, because we are here for you no matter what.

    Please keep us posted and tell us what you need, when you need it. We'll get it done.

    Thank God everyone in my department is gone for the day so one has to ask me why I'm crying in front of the computer.

    Big hugs to you, kiddo.
  13. by   adrienurse

    I Cannot stress this enough. I am here for you any time you need to talk.
  14. by   baseline
    I am a good listener and I can take alot of abuse! Feel free to put me to use. My thoughts and prayers are with you.......

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