Lost my first kid today

  1. coded at 0930. compressions, defibrillation, the whole 9 yards. 3 years old. didn't make it. this definately sucks. :stone
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  2. 22 Comments

  3. by   Love-A-Nurse


    sometimes a person needs to vent (needs a listening ear) and not have to hear the "heart of another", therefore, i have a ((((((walmart_adn))))) for you today.
  4. by   SmilingBluEyes
    Awww gee, that is so sad. Peds rips my heart out. It takes a special person to be a peds nurse, if you ask me. I am so sorry about this. No words to say other than that. How very, very sad.
  5. by   Rustyhammer
    Sorry,
    It sure hurts doesn't it?
    Your post reminded me of when my son died.
    (sigh)
    -Russell
  6. by   Love-A-Nurse
    originally posted by rustyhammer
    sorry,
    it sure hurts doesn't it?
    your post reminded me of when my son died.
    (sigh)
    -russell
    (((((rusty and familly))))). i did not know of your lost.
  7. by   sunnygirl272
    (((((((leann)))))))
    ((((((russell)))))


    le- wanna vent and share the whole gory story, or wouldja rather not talk?
  8. by   live4today
    Walmart.....from one pedi nurse to another.....my heart goes out to you right now....and especially to the family of the little one who went to Heaven today. ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) :kiss

    Rusty....(((((((HUGS))))))) to your family as well on the loss of your son. It doesn't matter if it's been years since a child's death.....to a parent...it's like it happened yesterday. :kiss
  9. by   Rustyhammer
    Thank you my friends.
    You are all so good.
    -Russell
  10. by   prn nurse
    I agree, it certainly takes a special person to be a peds nurse. I witnessed the death of an 18 monthl old many years ago. I was out of there. I knew it wasn't for me. Someone has to do it and I admire those who do. Hugs to you. I will be thinking of you and hope you can handle it.

    And Russ, a big embrace fo you. Unlike us peds nurses, parents don't have a choice. That sigh was heard and felt 1/2 way 'round the world. An earth shattering, heart wrenching , soul shattering painful echo of loss. Regrets to you too.
  11. by   OBNURSEHEATHER
    Leann - I have no advice or words of wisdom for you. Just a big old fat hug. I wish I could say it gets easier..... share if you feel like it. Sometimes it's too hard when it's still so fresh.

    Rusty - you never cease to amaze me. Your family is very lucky to have a man like you.

    Heather
  12. by   RN-PA
    ((((((leann)))))) ((((((Russell)))))) Prayers for you both and for the child's family...
  13. by   RNConnieF
    Leann,
    It never gets easier ( I worked peds for 6 years), but thank God you can still feel it. There is nothing worse than a nurse who no longer feels when a patient dies. Hugs to you.
  14. by   Rustyhammer
    I will share something with you all that happened to me.
    Our son who died was named Dillon and it has been 16 years since he passed away.

    When we made the decision to adopt an "older" child we went through the whole process and had to wait almost 2 years to finally get matched up with a potential child.

    We were on the verge of thinking it wasn't going to happen.
    Then one day last summer we got the phone call.
    There was a potential match...an 8 year old child needed a home.
    His name was...Dillon.

    We cried together and thought it must be a sign.
    We met him, fell in love and he is now part of us forever.
    -Russell

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