Life is like this sometimes

  1. Just too many times for me, at this point.

    My older cat, who I got as a kitten when I moved to MN 12 years ago, is very sick today. I've been having dreams about what I'd do if I lost her, because she's been such a comfort to me through so many bad times....and now the possibility is setting in, and I'm afraid. I know some of you don't care for pets, but they are a special part of my life, always have been. I have no family left, but even if I did, my cats would hold a special place in my heart.

    I just learned a few minutes ago that my current job will be losing funding as of the end of next June. I'll be through my first year of school by then, but I don't know what I'll do at that point to support myself. Next summer will be the first break I've had in about 3 years (no summer classes or work obligations), and I haven't had a real vacation in, oh, 14 years. (Sad I know, but funerals and stuff always seemed to be the way I'd spend my time.) I was hoping to get out of town for a bit, but now I'm not sure what's in store.

    Please just tell me that it will get better, sometimes anymore I just have to wonder. Sorry guys, it's been a sad couple of days for me.

    ats
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  3. by   live4today
    (((((((((ats))))))))) Life is a major 'BEACH' at times, I know. I'm sending hugs your way, and positive thoughts and prayers that you'll be comforted in this time of your life. I love pets....I have one....so I know the feeling of losing a pet will be awful for you.

    If you are anywhere near Texas, I invite you to come and spend a few days in our home. That will make it seem like you've had a vacation. We'll feed you, show you all the free stuff around here, and make you laugh a lot! :kiss
  4. by   LasVegasRN
    Oh, ATS... I'm sending major hugs your way also!! I can definitely relate! If I could send you a song to lift your spirits, I send you "Stand" by Donnie McClurkin. Whatever you're going through, just know we are here and we care.
  5. by   ats
    Thanks so much, cheerfuldoer and Vegas, I appreciate your good thoughts. Don't even know why I posted this here, it's just hard for me to keep myself going at times. Silly, I know, but quitting is not an option...just wish I could sit down sometimes, instead of always having to do everything, take care of every little thing, alone. You'd think it would be easy by now.

    After several surgeries and lots of ER visits, my health is finally looking up again. I'm no dummy either, I've made it this far (a minor miracle), so I'll come through all this too. Just feeling especially lonely lately, and throwing a little pity party, I guess. Being here, and chatting with some wonderful people, has done so much to help in so many ways. So thanks again for showing that you care....I'm here for you guys too, always.

    Charlotte/ats
  6. by   CATHYW
    Hey, ATS, you are right-not every day will be like this. For some reason, the clouds are hanging over your life right now, but the sun will come out again!

    I'm really sorry about your kitty. This doesn't seem to be a very good week for them, from what I've read. Should you get a kitten for this kitty to "train," or is this one too sick for that?

    The positive side of your job funding issue is that you have almost a whole year to explore your options. Maybe you can plan a really nice vacation for when that job ends and before your new job begins!

    Take good care of yourself. Try to get enough rest, and walk some outside in the fresh air, in the evening, when it isn't too hot.:kiss
  7. by   ats
    Thanks, Cathy. Littlefoot is at the vet for a while, she's pretty sick and may need to go to the University hospital tomorrow. Whatever it takes, a bit more debt can't hurt me if it saves her.

    I'm not going to obsess over the job thing right now. Come next spring I'll have something in the works, maybe I can get in at one of the hospitals nearby in some capacity, if it works with school. As for a vacation...well, it would have been the El Cheapo plan anyway, since I'm as poor as dirt right now, and I can't see being able to afford gas, hotel and expenses for a trip...don't really have a destination to head to anyway. Maybe by next spring, I'll have a better plan in mind.

    Thanks for the advice, Cathy. It's pouring rain here right now, which I love. Maybe I'll go take a little walk and think things through a bit.
  8. by   Jenny P
    Char, get inside right now! It's been raining cats and dogs here with lots of thunder and lightning since 4PM today! Last thing we need is a lightning struck member here. I already PM'ed you, hope it helps.
    Take care of yourself. And the U vet's hospital does a good job on pets-- our dog spent a very expensive time there; but she is just fine now.
  9. by   RNinICU
    Feel free to come here for a pity party any time. When I have days that I think the world is out to get me, I remember what my Grandma told me when I was growing up. If life is too much to handle right now, think about where you want to be in five years, and imagine yourself in that place. Things are hard for you now, and I am not trying to minimize that, but in five years, you will be finished with school, working at a job you love., and your debt will be diminishing rapidly. For now, I am sending you hugs and hoping you soon feel better.
  10. by   vettech
    Originally posted by andthensome!
    Just too many times for me, at this point.

    My older cat, who I got as a kitten when I moved to MN 12 years ago, is very sick today. I've been having dreams about what I'd do if I lost her, because she's been such a comfort to me through so many bad times....and now the possibility is setting in, and I'm afraid. I know some of you don't care for pets, but they are a special part of my life, always have been. I have no family left, but even if I did, my cats would hold a special place in my heart.

    I just learned a few minutes ago that my current job will be losing funding as of the end of next June. I'll be through my first year of school by then, but I don't know what I'll do at that point to support myself. Next summer will be the first break I've had in about 3 years (no summer classes or work obligations), and I haven't had a real vacation in, oh, 14 years. (Sad I know, but funerals and stuff always seemed to be the way I'd spend my time.) I was hoping to get out of town for a bit, but now I'm not sure what's in store.

    Please just tell me that it will get better, sometimes anymore I just have to wonder. Sorry guys, it's been a sad couple of days for me.

    ats
    If there's anything I can help you with in regards to your cat, feel free to ask. I do critical care for a veterinary internist/cardiologist and am used to dealing with these older cats.
  11. by   ats
    You guys make me feel so comforted, I can't thank you enough.

    I called for an update on Littlefoot, but they didn't want to give me any info, want the vet to give me a call in a bit. I'm hoping it's just to tell me she's better, or to ok further treatment. It seems her entire intestinal tract is impacted...but last night the vet said that, barring any secondary causes, she was hopeful that Little would get better. I am holding on to hope right now.

    I feel guilty in a way talking here...I'm usually the cheerer-upper for other people, but am not used to receiving it (or asking for it) in return. I don't usually get like this anymore, but I guess it's just a hiccup in my life. I've dealt with far worse, so I'll deal with this too, never fear.

    I've not met many people here so far, but I have a special few who are becoming like family to me, and I want to send my love out to them (you all know who you are, I think). For everyone who has spent a minute or two to reply to me, well, all I can say is that you ARE a lovely bunch of coconuts, and are very much appreciated by me.

    Char/ats
    Last edit by ats on Sep 6, '02
  12. by   ats
    Just a little update: Littlefoot is now home, used the litter box, has eaten a bit of her new food 3x now (she seems to love it, and she's very finicky about her chow). Didn't go into hiding as I expected; in fact, she's been all over the place, including my lap. Guess she's glad to see me too!

    Vettech, maybe you can give me hints on how to give her the dropperful of antibiotics -- have to do it singled-handedly, and she is NOT one to be held unless it's her idea.

    As far as the job, I heard today that the administration at the research organization I'm at will be looking to find a place for me, particularly since they now know I'm pursing my RN (and they're always looking to hire). No guarantees, but nice to know they're on my side!

    So all seems a bit better at the moment...had lots of nice people here working overtime sending me their good thoughts and wishes. Maybe somebody up/out/over there likes me -- wow, a novel concept!

    ats
  13. by   live4today
    ats.......that's great news indeed! I hope the little one continues to heal and pounce around your home for years to come. :kiss

    I'm pulling for you to keep your job, too. If you happen not to get to stay there, a better opportunity awaits you elsewhere that you don't know about as yet. Always keep the faith....never give up hope. We're here to cheer you on every chance we get. Just holler and we'll come running to your rescue! Keep us posted now. :kiss (((((((((ats)))))))))
  14. by   Mkue
    I'm glad things are starting to look a little brighter for you right now

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