i totally understand! (((((hugs)))))
my husband & i have been trying to conceive (ttc) since may 2000. in august 2000, we were diagnosed with severe male factor infertility. our count is around 30 mil, but our morphology & motility are only 1%. our only option is in-vitro. after many hours of internet & phone research, we chose dr. sherman silber's clinic in st. louis. he specializes in male infertility. he is one of the doctors who invented & perfected icsi (the procedure where the place the sperm directly inside the egg), which is what we need to get pregnant.
to top it all off, last fall i started slowly gaining weight & my periods started getting more irregular. my ob/gyn sent me to a re. to make a long story short, he found a mild case of pcos. so, now we are dealing with that also.
most people do not understand how hard emotionally trying to conceive is. if i hear, "just relax" or "just don't think about it" one more time, i am going to shoot somebody! :angryfire
we have decided to wait on ivf until next summer (july or august 2003), because i should graduate dec 2003. i figure i can graduate a few months pregnant. positive thinking, huh?
i just wanted to let you know you are not alone. if you ever want to "talk", i am here.
best wishes & +++++++++++++ thoughts to you!