Just the facts and nothing but...

  1. Here's the deal folks(for those of you that care to know the truth) Yes I PM'ed several people over the weekend and yes Wendy was one of them. But I DID NOT repeat DID NOT refuse her calls!!!I NEVER EVER GOT THEM PERIOD!!!! I feel totally bad for Wendy and the predicament she's in. I was ONLY reaching out for help and comfort. I called suicide prevention hotline. You know what? The ***** put me on hold!!! That's right. You can believe what you want about me. I don't care. But I know what I did. And I did not refuse phone calls from ANYONE. I was desperate for someone to talk to. I have a disease. Depression is a medical disease whether we want to acknowledge the fact or not. Some days are better than others, and some days are just plain excruciating. And if you think for one moment that I enjoy this or do this just to get kicks on a Saturday night then you need help as much as I do. I'm seeing a therapist on Thurs. morning, and geting my meds increased if not changed altogether. Then I see some of the replies and I'm literally blown away. Hell, the only thing that would have made any difference in some people's opinions about me at all is if I WOULD have done something rash. That would have given the Doubting Thomases and the WW bashers(you know who you are) something juicy for you to chew on. For the people who have been kind and understanding I thank you and I will be forever grateful for your friendship. I never meant to hurt anyone. And it was never my intention to manipulate anyone. If it was taken that way I extend my sincerest apologies to the hurt parties. To the people who think I'm get off on mind games I am here to tell you that you don't know Jack about me, or my life and you know which part of my ass you can kiss. I'll get through this somehow. Goodbye all. WW.
  2. 47 Comments

  3. by   canoehead
    Thanks for the information. We all hope you will be OK.
  4. by   Q.
    We don't deserve an explanation; Wendy does.
  5. by   RRMLPN
    WW i just wanted to send hugs to you and wish you the very best.
  6. by   Flynurse
    Yes. Please talk to Wendy.

    Glad to see you are alright!
  7. by   nurs4kids
    Okay, I waited 30 minutes..now I can post, right??

    First of all, IF you are depressed, IF you are suicidal, pm'ing someone on the internet..someone who is in another country is not going to help you one red cent.

    Instead of getting all heated at everyone, try for a second to put yourself in wendy's shoes. Suppose she received your pm and did nothing...and you went through with your threat..and it WAS a threat. Then, someone soft-hearted like wendy, must live the rest of her life in guilt. Guilty not because she did something wrong, but because she did nothing. That type guilt would drive someone like wendy insane..because she CARES. THAT is her crime.

    I don't know you, so it'd be unfair of me to pass judgement. I do, however, know one thing. Whether you're attention seeking OR truly suicidal, you need help and it is NOT the type help you're going to get on the internet. It is not the type help a stranger can offer. Seeking emotional support behind pm's and threads on a bb is a false sense of support and will do nothing but perpetuate your problems.

    I don't know what type response you're expecting or wanting from this thread, but it's cowardly IMHO. You were here and saw the thread Wendy started, yet didn't contact her and say, "hey, i'm okay..." No, you allowed her to worry about you and take a bashing from some members who felt she'd violated confidentality. You didn't choose to speak up on that thread and say, "here I am..yadda..yadda". But you choose to speak now..
    why? You pm'd a moderator and asked that the info be kept in pm's and off the bb, it was and the next one was closed..
    and NOW you restart the issue??

    i just don't get it.
    Last edit by nurs4kids on Mar 31, '03
  8. by   Ortho_RN
    Originally posted by Susy K
    We don't deserve an explanation; Wendy does.
    Ditto :stone
  9. by   Little One2
    Originally posted by Flynurse
    Yes. Please talk to Wendy.

    Glad to see you are alright!

    Wendy was quite concern. She did try calling you and there was no answer.

    We all care and are concerned. But, please talk to wendy.

  10. by   renerian
    I was busy and missed what happened. WW I hope your better today.

  11. by   RNonsense
    I think you should have pm'ed me or Wendy or whoever else you involved in this and let someone know you were ok.

    Letting Wendy know you wanted the thread pulled would have been nice too. At least Wendy would have known all was well.

    I'm glad to hear that you will be getting the help you need.

    We all care and were/are very concerned for your well being.

  12. by   warrior woman
    First of all, I never asked a Mod to move the thread. That was decided among others. I said I am leaving Allnurses voluntarily which I am. Secondly, I just PM'ed Wendy and profusely apologized for all of this. If it makes you feel better to call me out and call me a coward then more power to you. I'm glad it makes you feel better. And lastly I only pm'ed people to let them know how I was feeling so I could get a grip on things. I knew the backlash would be incredible, and I was right. But I do know that I am a better person than some of you say I am. I'll get better somehow. It hasn't always been fun, but I must say it's been an education for me. So long and good luck to all of you. Theresa.
  13. by   Brownms46
    WW...I'm glad to see that you're ok, and that you are doing something to help yourself. Take care...as I'm believing you will come thru this, and will continue to pray that you do just that
  14. by   Rustyhammer
    I sense a lot of hostility, pain and bitterness.
    A lot of people here really care about you and others on this BB and when someone threatens or implies that they are going to hurt themselves we all take it seriously.
    Yes there were those who thought it as an attention getting device and you need to understand that in this type of forum that is going to happen.
    I want everyone to listen to this.
    WW, Please don't come here with an angry tone when Wendy and others did the only thing that they felt they could do to help you. You situation was aired here on the BB not by you but by those who wanted to help you.
    I do not want this to turn into an ugly thread and believe me it really has the potential to get fugly!
    I will shut it down if it is going that direction.
    Theresa, If you want to explain your situation and let us KNOW how we can help then I'm sure many will be glad to lend a hand if possible.
    We will be here to listen and give advice (though many of us are unqualified to do so) but there is little else we can do.
    I urge the members to treat this thread cautiously.
    Love and Peace,