It just doesn't feel right

  1. I was driving down the stree the other day, and I felt something just wasn' t right. It was a sunny, beautiful day, and there was a quiet stillness in the air. And I just felt someting wasn't right!

    Here I was all safe and secure, in a small, peaceful town. But across the world, there was a war going on! A WAR where people were being killed...soilders from this country! Family members no less...who some of them I had no idea where they were, or what they were dealing with at that moment!

    I do know where one is..sort of. He has been stationed on the Kitty Hawk for years now, and is a Navy Seal. But there are three others I don't know where they are...nor do I wish to. Just too scared to ask.

    I felt an overwhelming sense of feeling out of place. I don't know how to describe...but I felt I should be doing something...to help..but couldn't think of what to do!

    Here I was all safe...and they aren't! I was driving to go to eat with a co-worker at our fav place. I felt guilty for some reason. I'm safe and they aren't!

    Does anyone get what I'm trying to say?? I cried the last time we were over there, and couldn't stop crying. I was in a grocery store and was crying as I was shopping. Tears are coming now as I type. I'm safe here..what is wrong with me???
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  2. 23 Comments

  3. by   RNonsense
    Awwww Brownie, nothing is wrong with you! I understand what you're trying to say...
    I wish I could say something to make you feel better. I will continue to pray for a safe and speedy return for all...
    Big Hugs!
  4. by   Brownms46
    Thank you RNonsense...

    I thought I was losing it, and was afraid to post what I was feeling, but I just couldn't my finger on why I was feeling this way.

    I'm glad you are praying, as I sincerly hope this will all end soon.. And I will no longer fear asking where my family members are. And I guess I feel guilty that I haven't written them before now. I just pray I get the chance to talk with them again I sincerly pray this is over before anymore people die.
  5. by   spineCNOR
    Brownie, there is nothing wrong with you--your feelings are very reasonable. I am sure that more people than you are aware of have a helpless feeling, and wish there was something they could do to help. May all of our soldiers be safe and return home soon.
  6. by   Sleepyeyes
    Brownie, ((((hugs))))) I felt that exact same way the day the war started. I decided that there WAS something I could do, even in a small way.

    I asked if our unit could send "care packages" to the soldiers, and we're now in the midst of getting things ready. It helps to feel like I'm contributing.

    Maybe it can help you too?

    This thread had a lot of good ideas:

    http://allnurses.com/forums/showthre...threadid=33221
    Last edit by Sleepyeyes on Mar 22, '03
  7. by   jnette
    You're certainly not alone in your feelings/emotions.

    We are with them in spirit, in thought, and in prayer.

    And with all the innocents on both fronts who are in harm's way.

    ((( ))) :kiss
  8. by   renerian
    That is right you are not alone. I prayed so hard again last night. Thinking I felt safe in my home and bed. In some countries they never feel like that. Very sad. I know a war just makes us feel sad.

    renerian
  9. by   NurseShell
    I get it. I've been on the verge of tears for days now. I can't seem to peel myself away from the TV. Like you said, we are safe - but they are not. People I know have family over there - their children are fighting this war. Everytime they mention casualties - I cringe. They read some names this afternoon - one of the men lived about 15 mins from my house - I cried for him and his family.

    Yep...I completely understand. (((HUGS)))
  10. by   hapeewendy
    I've also felt bad for living ..... you know doing the mundane things of life, going to the bank, groceries, working etc...
    thinking I'm here doing this stuff but how meaningful is it in the big scheme of things while all those people are fighting for all of us...

    and then I realize that they are fighting for the ability for me to be able to do these mundane things like going to a bank , or the store, or even the ability for me to go to work
    cuz it isnt like that in a lot of places..

    I appreciate life more day by day and pray for the families of those out fighting for all of us...
  11. by   MandyInMS
    I know just how you feel Brownms...I think it's called being HUMAN..the uncertainty of our future for our troops/loved ones is a heavy burden on most normal people I think. Add everyday stress to that and DAYUM it gets overwhelming. Just know you aren't alone in your feelings hun ((((hugz))))
  12. by   Brownms46
    WOW! Thank you ALL for your understanding! Whew! That's a relief...of some sort..as I'm not cracking up...or getting some kind of anxiety crisis or something. You guys have done me a world of good today! :kiss

    And Sleepyeyes...the day the War started is exactly the day I started having these feelings! I can't say that I'm glad I'm not alone in them...but glad someone understands what I was feeling. Thanks for the link! Not sure whether to go shopping for items to send, or just start baking. Thanks for the link...as it definitely helped.... Maybe I will do both!
  13. by   Tweety
    I don't think we need to dishonor them by not living life. But it would be a dishonor to be petty and ungrateful.

    You are living life, you are feeling your life, you are appreciative of your life, and you are thinking of others. Sounds like you are doing fine.

    editied to remove a couple of dreaded "your's" when I meant you are...whew...
  14. by   BadBird
    Of course we understand, I think we all feel like that somewhat. It is good to remember that because of the bravery of the service men/women we can drive to our favorite restuarants and live in peace, if it wasn't for them we could not.

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