Maybe now I can share my ordeal with infertility.
DH and I started trying to get pregnant in 1999. I knew I had endometriosis, but at the time we started trying, I was hoping my age would help. We did the ovulation predictors kits for a long time-nothing would happen. After the 1st year, I made an appt to see my ob/gyn. I was having pelvic pain so I had my 3rd diagnostic laparoscopy to check on the endo and see if I had any ovarian cysts (I have problems with those too). They also did a HSG (hysterosalpingogram) to check my tubes-all were clear. DH had tests run-he was fine.
In December 2000, I started on Clomid-I took that for 3 cycles without any luck. I was in severe pain from the endo, so I was put on Lupron for 6 months.
After those long 6 months, I was started on Provera and then I started on Pergonal injections. By Dec. 2001, I was finally pregnant and so happy and excited.
I had a difficult pregnancy: at 6 weeks, we learned I was having twins; then at 8 weeks, we learned we had lost on of our babies to vanishing twin syndrome (it is a form of miscarriage). I had other problems in this pregnancy too-I won't go into all the details. Our son, Blake was born at 32 weeks because of complications from PIH; he passed away at 12 days of age from complications of a congenital heart defect. He was also born with hemivertebrae and a bilateral cleft lip and palate.
We started trying again in Dec. 2002. In addition to the endometriosis, I have been diagnosed with PCOS (after being tentatively diagnosed before).
I have done 3 cycles of Pergonal injections and one cycle of Gonal-F with an IUI. In the middle of all this, I have had a 4th diagnostic lap to check on the endo and ovaries and tubes-I had some endo lasered off, some cysts drained..I found out today that I am not pregnant...once again
The ob/gyn I have been seeing (since mine relocated in July 2003) has a sub-specialty in infertility and he has suggested that IVF may be our next option; it is one that we would do if we were guaranteed that I would get pregnant on the first try and bring home a baby. But since there are no guarantees, we will probably be pursuing adoption. My DH doesn't want to wipe out our bank accounts or take out a loan for IVF: I don't either, but at this point, my desire to bring home a baby clouds my judgement.
Anyway, that is all about me and infertility.
And yes, I can understand the hurt, pain and anger about seeing pregnant teens, people who abuse the children they have, and others....won't go into that here. :uhoh21: