I'm Not Gonna Make It.....

  1. My beautiful 18 year old daughter signed up for the military and is leaving Tuesday for boot camp.
    She is the one I am very close to and who has kept me sane throughout the years. I love her more than anything and I am going to miss her terribly.
    My heart is already breaking and I can't cry another tear....
    This pain is almost unbearable to let her go.
    I know I have to, but it is so very hard.......
    Life is hard.....too hard.....

    Amanda~ I love you so very much and will always be with you!
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  3. by   Saved_by_Grace
    [font=lucida sans unicode]my heart goes out to you. even though you know it's time to let her go, i'm sure that doesn't make it any easier. {{{{{{{..hugs..}}}}}}} to you.
  4. by   Tweety
    (((((((Julie)))))))
  5. by   bluesky
    {{{{{{{Julie}}}}}}}

    I have an "adorable" 2 1/2 yr old I'd be willing to give up for a couple of years if you're interested....


    Lexi
  6. by   rcmd/nicu
    [QUOTE=Julielpn]My beautiful 18 year old daughter signed up for the military and is leaving Tuesday for boot camp.
    She is the one I am very close to and who has kept me sane throughout the years. I love her more than anything and I am going to miss her terribly.
    My heart is already breaking and I can't cry another tear....
    This pain is almost unbearable to let her go.
    I know I have to, but it is so very hard.......
    Life is hard.....too hard.....

    Amanda~ I love you so very much and will always be with you! [/QUOTE



    My heart goes out to you. I have an 18yo niece who is joining the Army reserves and is leaving for boot camp this week as well. I wanted so to encourage her to consider other paths and I did write to her, but she has her dreams. I do not want her to go to Iraq. Last Friday I heard a story on NationalPublicRadio about a Major Stacy Garrity in southern Iraq who worked in a prison. It was a beautiful story and made me feel a bit better about my niece and what may lie ahead for her. Check out the story on NPR.com--and put in keywords Iraq, Garrity. take care dear mother.
  7. by   Energizer Bunny
    ((((((((Julie))))))))) I can't imagine what you are going through. I will say a prayer for your daughter's safety and your peace of mind!
  8. by   nurseygrrl
    (((((Julie))))) I am so sorry that you're going through this pain Being a mother is the hardest job on earth and you're going through one of the roughest times right now. Just know that this will help your daughter become more independent and that she will come back to you a stronger, more well rounded woman. Letting go is never easy, but she will come back and she will always be with you no matter where she is in the world...that's how moms and daughters are. I'll be praying for strength for ya...keep your head up!
  9. by   FranEMTnurse
    ((((((((((((((Julie)))))))))))

    I do understand your feeling, sweetie. Will you look up Psalm 91 in your Bible? It may give you a little bit of assurance. You see, when my oldest daughter was 6, she was taken away. I had no idea where she was, and at that age, I also knew she was unable to take care of herself. I felt like an empty shell, and cried volumes of tears too. A few people at church assured me she would be returned. Not feeling it myself, I doubted. But she was returned 11 months later. She didn't remember much about me, because her mind was completely mixed up. she was so traumatized, she got on the floor on her hands and knees, and made animal sounds. She also didn't understand the meaning of love. She would look at inanimate objects and quote, "I love you" over and over again.
    It took a lot of prayer and a lot of my showing her the love, the patience, and the wisdom God gave me to get her straightened around. It took a couple years, but I will always remember the break-through. She always had a lot of homework to do, and I sat up with her night after night helping her with it. I had a confrence with her teacher, and she told me the reason Laurell had so much homework was due to her slowness in getting her work done in class. She urged me to push Laurel to speed up. I looked at her and asked, "Which would you prefer? Quality work, or quantity work? Pushing her will only frustrate her even more. I've been working with her on it, and I'm going to let her work at her own pace, and when she catches on. Don't worry; she'll be caught up by the end of the school year. She not only caught up, but she exceeded so well, she was a top student at the end of the school year.

    Anyway, the break-through came one night while I was working with her on her homework. She looked at me and said, "I love you, mommy." The bond remains to this day, and we are as close as you and your baby girl are. You already have the most precious thing you can have from her, and she you. It is a bond of love that will never be broken. Hang on to that sweetie, and cherish it, as I'm sure she will.

    When Laurell went off to college, I again felt I was losing her, but I didn't. I was still able to spend a lot of time with her on the phone, and even on some weekends at college. After she got her bachelors degree, she attended graduate school in Texas. I knew I was unable to afford a ticket to fly there, so I knew when I saw her again, it would be when she returned home to marry her fiance she had met when she was at Cornell. Yes, I shed numerous tears, because I thought I was going to lose her. How wrong I was. She is currently working on her PHD,and she has been married for 13 years now to her college sweetheart, and they have two precious little girls. The best part is, we all live close together now, and I not only get to see her more often, but I also get to see my beloved son-in-law and my little grandkids a lot. How very blessed I am, because I let my precious little bird spread her wings and fly. Sweetie, I will pray for her protection, claiming Psalm 91 over your little girl, and thanking God for placing guardian angels around her for her protection. God has performed numerous miracles in my life, and He will for you too; you just need to not only believe in Him, but you need to believe Him. He is incapable of lying.

    I truly hope this message will encourage you, and give you some comfort.

    (((((HUGS))))):kiss
  10. by   HannasMom
    Julie, my heart goes out to you. My son turned 18 this year and I do have the fear that the President may want to reinstate the draft, and I'm afraid that my son could be called to serve. I hope and pray this never happens. I wish this awful war was over!!!
  11. by   SmilingBluEyes
    (((((((((((Julie))))))))))))))

    so different are you than my mom who could not WAIT to be rid of me to the US military. I feel for you. Seeing a child of mine off to the military would be SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD!!!!!!!!!!!! My thoughts are with you today, Julie. Hang in there, stay in touch and keep your chin up! And thank your daughter for me, will you, one vet to another (about-to-be-vet).
  12. by   Nurse Ratched
    Please let your daughter know how proud we (and you) are of her for volunteering to serve her country. Hard as it must be for you, I also want to let you know what a fine job you've done raising a child who would accept this duty.

    Warm thoughts to you both and good vibes for her safety.
  13. by   VivaLasViejas
    Julie, my thoughts and prayers are with you & your daughter........if it's any comfort to you, we're in the same boat together: my own precious 18 YO daughter, Melanie, leaves for Army boot camp on the 13th of next month. I'm so proud of her, and so happy she's going to escape this little burg we live in and see something of the world. But I'm terrified that she'll end up in Iraq, or be a target for terrorists, or that some unspeakable disaster awaits her.........of course, I know there's no such thing as safety anywhere in the world anymore, something awful can happen to any of us at any time, even in the relative peace of our own homes.

    But I'll learn to live with it, as you will, because as mothers of adult children, we have NO control over their situation no matter where they go (I'm learning THAT painful lesson with my 21-year-old ). In the meantime, all we can do is pray that God will keep a watchful eye over them, and think of the adventures they'll have that we can only dream about.

    (((((Julie)))))
  14. by   JedsMom
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your daughter. Thank you to your daughter for her service to our country. God bless.

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