I'm having a Mama Moment

  1. Hi. It's about 1300 here, and it's raining. My 18 year old daughter is in her bed, taking a nap. I can hear her breathing. I am overcome with love for her and gratitude for her and her sister in my life.

    These moments are all the more sweet, because she'll graduate from high school soon and off to university. It will never be like this again in my life, and I'm all too aware of that.

    Love

    Dennie
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  3. by   Mary Dover
    Oh Dennie- I know just the feeling you are talking about. What is it about watching your 'babies' sleeping that can cause such a rush of emotion, a total feeling of uncontrollable and completely unconditional love? The best feeling in the world, dont'cha think?
    Mary
  4. by   live4today
    Dennie, I feel your heartache, too! My three daughters left the nest one by one, and today they are 25, 28, and 31 with families of their own. It hurt each time one left, but when the baby left...what sorrow I felt and tears I shed. I went through the "empty nest syndrome" for a time, and didn't know how to survive without them underfoot. Today, I call them on the phone, and I just want to be there with them so bad. We're all so close to one another. Even though we talk to one another on the phone a lot, it's not the same as having them close by where I can smell them, touch them, hug them, embrace them, and see them smile. I feel your pain, and I am with you today in thought and prayer. Cherish those moments ever so sweetly while she's there with you. College is a whole new ballgame, as we all know! (((HUGS))) and :kisses to you!
  5. by   live4today
    Originally posted by Renee Williams
    Dennie, I feel your heartache, too! My three daughters left the nest one by one, and today they are 25, 28, and 31 with families of their own. It hurt each time one left, but when the baby left...what sorrow I felt and tears I shed. I went through the "empty nest syndrome" for a time, and didn't know how to survive without them underfoot. Today, I call them on the phone, and I just want to be there with them so bad. We're all so close to one another. Even though we talk to one another on the phone a lot, it's not the same as having them close by where I can smell them, touch them, hug them, embrace them, and see them smile. I feel your pain, and I am with you today in thought and prayer. Cherish those moments ever so sweetly while she's there with you. College is a whole new ballgame, as we all know! (((HUGS))) and :kisses to you!


    "I've learned that when your newly born child holds your little finger in his or her little fist that you're hooked for life." -- Andy Rooney
  6. by   live4today
    Sorry for the "double post". All I was trying to do was go back and add a quote to my first post, and when I clicked on saved, two post came up. Go figure! Computers drive me nuts sometimes! :chuckle

    Then, when I tried to "delete" the second post, and leave the quote on the first post, a message pops up and says "I'm not authorized to delete my post". Okie dokie then! :chuckle
  7. by   Mary Dover
    Being a mama is like "having your heart outside your body".
  8. by   NurseDennie
    You guys are SO right.... *sigh*

    It'll be okay, I know it will. And even if it isn't, what can *I* do about it? Nothing. And what *Would* I do even if I could? Nothing.

    I miss my babies as though they really are still babies and Gramma has them or something, isn't that strange? I mean, here I am, with these lovely, lovely young women, and at the same time pining for the baby Meg to jump into my arms yelling "Look out, here me comes!"

    But even *I* know that I can't keep them little, can't even keep them young and/or safe. Safe is good.... But I know there are mamas whose babies never grow up - and those are the really sad ones. I'm not sad, I'm just bitter-sweet.

    When my older daughter had her ear surgery, I told the doc "Be careful, you have myheart in your hands." and he held me and said "I know." LOL - then the walked off to the OR eating one of those banana flip things. How confident does THAT make me feel???

    So.... Life goes on, doesn't it? Whether you're ready for it or not. My Meg woke up, the phone started ringing, she's been doing stuff, getting ready to babysit at church this evening, making plans for after that.

    My older daughter who lives with her boyfriend calls me pretty much every day and we talk, and Meg calls me from time to time during the evening when she's out with her friends, checking in and just saying hi. Last night, she'd gone to pick up her friend coming home from university at the airport, and they were running around, getting other friends, and she found a movie I wanted, and she bought it for me and brought it home.... You know? She's really really sweet.

    I got a LOT more than I deserve, I know that.

    But I want more.

    Love

    Dennie
  9. by   prmenrs
    When I look at pictures of my son as a baby, toddler, preschooler, 6th grader, etc., sometimes I feel like I'm looking at a whole different person. And I miss all those other little guys--he was such a cuddle-bunny. Fortunately he still is. I just can't fit all of him in my lap now.
  10. by   aus nurse
    Ah Dennie, I know what you mean. My son is only 10 but already I don't want him to go. I tell him it's fine for him to leave home and live anywhere in the world but I'll be living next door, lol.
    I'm gonna have to get a life when he goes....oh no!!!

    I feel like I've never been without him but on the other hand he is growing so quickly and the time is whizzing by.

    Dennie, your girls sound sweet and that's cuz they have a sweet mum...you do deserve it all.
  11. by   CANRN
    Awww *hand over heart* How I can relate! My youngest is a daughter 16, *whimper* She just turned 16 in Feb and on occassion through out the day I had tears well up in my eyes as I realized in two short years she too will leave the nest. Her three older brothers have all left, are married and have made me a GRANDMOTHER!!!
    My youngest grandson is 2 and the spitting image of his father when he was that age. At times I look at that precious child and get tears in my eyes thinking of his Daddy when he was little. Oh how I miss them. BUT....Our REWARD is seeing our adult children turn out to be the great individuals that WE TRAINED them to be! That is just too kewl and then...GRANDBABIES!!!
    So girls, there is still a rainbow to look forward to, when your children will bless you with grandchildren and once again, you will have the PRIVILEDGE of spending time with an infant and watch them grow The best part fo this deal is..THEY GO HOME!!! LOL:chuckle
  12. by   live4today
    Amen on that one, CANRN! Those grandbabies are the apple of me eye, but I can send them home to their mommas and daddies when me gets too tired to pop with them.

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    "The reason grandparents and grandchildren get along so well is that they have a common enemy." (which are the parents) -- Sam Levenson :chuckles
  13. by   OBNURSEHEATHER
    Thank you guys for your stories, they show me I'm not alone.

    I'm often surprsed at my own emotions when I watch my son. The overwhelming feelings he evokes. It's pure, unconditional pride and love. I can honestly say I don't have that with any other human being.

    OK, now mommy needs some kisses!

    Heather
  14. by   live4today
    OBNURSEHEATHER, consider yourself :kissed! Night-night!

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