I had a pretty good day at work even though the politics were kind of heavy today.
When I got off and picked up my kids, they were bickering and yelling at each other. I tried to pick them up but they continued and I blew up at them saying, "I can't see why you guys have to wreck MY day with all your fighting".
I drove home in silence.
I began to think about how I never have time for myself anymore. I'm always taking care of everyones problems...at work, at home, friends.
I question my parenting ability and if I am making the right choices in how I raise my kids etc...
Now I suppose I should snap out of it and go hug my kids and start fixing dinner but I think I'll just wallow in my self doubt a while longer.
Welcome to my (self) pity-party!
Jul 30, '02
((((hugs))) to you. Sorry for the youck feeling. I know what you mean though. Sometimes we get so fixed on fixing everything.
We fix the patients, we fix the Dr's we fix the kids, the dinner the clogged drain.. the list goes on and on and we never feel like we have time for ourselves. Sometimes we even have to rush through a shower.
But we are flesh and blood and it is our nature to fix everything. And we could change all that. But we would be miserable people. When you have a patient or a Dr. that says thanks, or you get a big hug from the kids. Its all worth it. And tomorrow will be a new day.
Hang in there. We've all been there and will be again.
Last edit by andrewsgranny on Jul 30, '02