Bless you for attending the service! :kiss My long-time partner recently died suddenly, and I was shocked to find that almost no one we knew ("his" friends, "my" friends, or "our" friends) attended the memorial service (I had personally contacted them all and invited them -- it wasn't that they weren't aware of the date/time). I am still so hurt and angry and sad about THAT, in addition to his death ... It's painful enough to have your loved one die suddenly and unexpectedly, but it's that much worse to find out that the people that you thought were your close friends and cared about you apparently aren't and don't. I know, intellectually, all the stuff about people not attending memorials because of their own discomfort with death, etc., yada yada yada, but I can tell you it means a tremendous amount to the survivors.
I hope that nurses are, in general, not as "squeamish" about attending memorials as the general public, but I would urge all of you to make the effort to attend, if possible, when you have any connection or positive feelings for the deceased or the surviving family and loved ones.