And i found out today that it wasn't.
He's not ready for dating, i know that. He had a divorce over a year ago, and htere's plenty to recover from that.
And tried very hard to fight it, but i fell for him anyway. I love everything about him, i wanted to be with him. I was so happy to have him in my life.
He never mistreated me, cheated on me, etc. Perhaps if he had, this would be easier.
It is very hard to sit up and do any school work. It's a struggle to try and clean up my house, but if i sit down, all i do is think about it all. The pain is so bad, i feel it in my chest and throat.
No, i won't do anything stupid. I'm just having a very hard time right now trying to focus on anything but how bad i hurt right now, how much it hurts to know that i'll never hear from him again, never hold him again. I know eventually i'll heal from this, but till then, it's just absolute emotional hell.