I don't think I can fight anymore

  1. The title of this thread says it all. This Warrior Woman feels like laying down her sword and shield. I feel so useless, helpless, and alone. I'm just so tired. Of everything. Of pain. Of worry. Of life. I'm sorry for venting my spleen like this, but there's only so much a human being can take, and I've more than reached my breaking point. I couldn't help my dad, and I couldn't protect my mom. So tell me, what the hell good am I anyway? I can't take much more. Feel like curling up in a ball and sleeping for the rest of my life. It's just how I feel. Pray for my mom tomorrow. Please she needs your help. Your prayers are probably wasted on me. I truly love all of you. Really I do, but right now all I see is darkness and uncertainty. You are all special people. Never forget that. WW.
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  2. 24 Comments

  3. by   Jenny P
    Theresa, we care about you. I will pray for both you and your Mom. Sometimes it's necessary to get professional help when you are going through tough times. I've been there before, and I know that someday I may need help again, and when there is so much happening in your life it may be too much for you to deal with alone. Please take care of yourself right now. Your Mom and Duckie need you.
  4. by   Tweety
    Never forget you are a special person too sweetness. You've gone above and beyond what anyone could stand. We can't always save and protect our loved ones, especially our aging parents, that's not why we are here. Bad things just happen and it's not a reflection on you.

    If all you see is darkness and uncertainty, try taking things a little easier. Don't look too far ahead. Put one foot in front of the other and take things minute by minute. Breath by breath. You won't fall apart, life will go on and you'll get through it. Hang in there.

    And why "fight" at all. Sometimes there's victory in surrender. (Not surrendering to dispair, but to life itself as it is, acceptance. )

    Lean on those who care.

    (((((Hugs))))))
    Last edit by Tweety on Dec 23, '02
  5. by   jemb
    Dear sweet Theresa... my heart goes out to you. You've had way more than your share of hard times recently. You are a very special person. Although I have never met you, I feel that I know you from your posts, and from Duckie's love for you. Please stay in touch with us here. We do care about you.

    (((((((((hugs))))))))))
  6. by   NancyRN
    I can't add to 3rdShitGuy's excellent advice, so I'm adding my prayers for you, Theresa.
  7. by   cargal
    My thoughts are with you. Thank you for reaching out to us.

    Blessings,
  8. by   kittyw
    (((Group hug))) Good luck at the cardio appt today. Have you talked with a pyschologist? It might help - this is so much to be handling all at once. Yack at us as much as you want - we're listening and sending prayers and positive thoughts your way. :kiss
    Kitty
  9. by   renerian
    I want to help you my friend. I felt just like that when my father died of cancer. Watching him die over the period of a year and a half about killed me. I felt I could take no more. I could not protect him from any of the suffering he was enduring. When my mom died in the period of a 24 hour span of that horrible flesh eating bacterial disease I watched her endure two surgeries to her legs, shoulders,buttocks and back. She died a horrible bloody death. I watched her suffer and could not protect her. All my knowledge did nothing for either one. My love was there fighting tooth and nail but it was to no avail. I thought long and hard about could I have done anything else to protect them or to shorten their suffering. No I could not . Life is a miracle and sometimes bad things happen to good people. I know you were there to support your father, like me. I know you are there to support your mother and your trying to hold onto her with every fiber of your being. I did too. I will pray for her. I will pray for you to reach deep down inside and find the strength your mother will need in the coming months.

    God bless you and I am here if you need to chat.


    A big cyber hug to you,

    renerian/susan:kiss
  10. by   karenG
    my thoughts are with you.

    Karen
  11. by   mattsmom81
    Special hugs and prayers going out to you today...life can be so unfair...please take care of yourself and know that people love you and care about you. (((HUGS)))))
  12. by   lindalee
    Theresa, Please know that we do all care about you. I too have been the long walk with both of my parents. It is awful and there is nothing you can do except be there for them. At some point everyone will have to make the end of the walk with his or her parents. It is awful to be unable to stop the aging process and accept the inevitable end of life. I know only too well the helpless feeling of being able to help others and do nothing for those you love the most in the world. Please do see someone, I did and it did help. Grief is very difficult and almost crippling in its power. Know that one day you will again feel the warm sun on your back and enjoyment in life. Please see someone soon. Prayers going out to you and your Mom.
  13. by   ShandyLynnRN
    You and your mother are in my prayers WW. I can't really add to anything the others have said.
  14. by   nursegoodguy
    Originally posted by 3rdShiftGuy
    Never forget you are a special person too sweetness. You've gone above and beyond what anyone could stand. We can't always save and protect our loved ones, especially our aging parents, that's not why we are here. Bad things just happen and it's not a reflection on you.

    If all you see is darkness and uncertainty, try taking things a little easier. Don't look too far ahead. Put one foot in front of the other and take things minute by minute. Breath by breath. You won't fall apart, life will go on and you'll get through it. Hang in there.

    And why "fight" at all. Sometimes there's victory in surrender. (Not surrendering to dispair, but to life itself as it is, acceptance. )

    Lean on those who care.

    (((((Hugs))))))
    Wow, I couldn't have said it better!
    Theresa my best wishes for you and your mother in the new year.

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