I'd never tolerate my hubby going to that type club..period. I'd constantly be beating myself, wondering what I couldn't do for him that they could; although that's rarely the case. I did go through the same "child porn" thoughts as you, but mine was from his magazines and from porn sites being left in the address bar on the computer. ALL those girls look like teens. He and I had several heated topics on his, in my opinion, addiction to porn. He pointed out several things to me, one of which is that unless a man wants to look at women who look 50, then the only other option is those who are supposedly 18, but IMO look 15. After I had my first child, a daughter, this bothered me more than ever. Every time I'd pull up the browser and it'd come up, I'd hit the roof. As much as it seemed like an obscession to me, it is probably more like an addiction..one the majority of the males "suffer". After talking a couple of my male co-workers about the subject (yeah, we're all open-books here), I found that my hubby isn't different than the average male pig
. Thank God I didn't have your problem. He's never, in 6 yrs of marriage, gone out to any club w/o me, let alone a strip club. He did go to a strip club the night of his bachelor's party, with my blessings..that was his first and last time to go. He said he could think of too many other things to put his dollars into..
Sooooooooo, finally I came to the conclusion that I'd rather him be surfing the net looking at "trash", than out in the streets looking. The last time I saw it on our browser, I said to him, "Ok dammit...YOU have a college degree working with computers..at LEAST have enough respect for me and the kids to clear the damn cookies from the browser". I've not seen any since, nor have I looked for it...sometimes you just have to let beast be beast
I also figure porn may be my friend...I don't feel quiet as guilty when I say I have a headache..lol