I need words of wisdom here...I am really hurting
I am having a really hard time with my life right now. I feel that I am trapped between my Faith in God and my non religious family. I wish my family would follow in my path into Christianity, but they won't. Today, I chose God over family. My mother is very, very mad at me. But my heart just told me to go with God. I missed my sisters bridal shower. I don't enjoy being around people that swear a lot and drink a lot, and have nothing good to say. So I didn't go. Tomorrow afternoon, I am spending the day with my sister. I feel that one on one time with my sister is so much better then just being in the same room as her.
I guess some of my family is upset with me too. But, this isn't really the whole problem. I can't really go into depth, because I have lost track of why my mother and I do not get along. It has been going on for too long, and I can't take it anymore. The reasons I come home late sometimes is because I just don't want to go home, I don't want to deal with my mothers negative attitude. I'm tired of crying all the time. I'm tired of my mother not listening to ME. I sit and listen to her, I try to do what she wants, but for some reason it's just not good enough. Tomorrow night I guess I am going to be having a 'talk' with both mom and dad. I don't look forward to it.
I will sit and listen to what they have to say, but they need to listen to what I have to say. I'm to the point where I just don't want to live here anymore. I just want to leave for a while. But I guess running isn't going to solve much. But it would give my mother and I a break.
Well, thanks for listening, if you've read this far! Sorry so long. I just really need to let it out. I need some words of wisdom. Prayers if you will. I'm just so tired of everyday being sad, and in pain. I'm tired of crying all the time.