Oh, I am just so mortified beyond belief:imbar ! What the hell was I thinking?!? I never even drink with my family! Highlights from the evening (as I recall them) include:
-blubbering to my aunt about how much I love her & what a great godmother she's been to me
my cousin (no, my family is not that way
-driving home, which I am so so so angry at myself for doing :angryfire
I know I didn't even start drinking until most of my family had gone home (Thank God). I started with a couple Captain Diets. And I'd been meaning to talk to my aunt about some family issues & it just seemed like perfect timing when the rest of the family left & just her I could sit & talk. So her & I had an alcohol-filled heart to heart:biere: , then I remember she eventually went to bed, leaving me & my cousins (who are all in our early to late 20s) downstairs to keep partying.
Now, as for the flashing...I had been wearing a suede vest that zipped up with a shirt underneath it that my mom had given to me for Christmas the night before, but must have eventually decided to change into the sweatsuit that my aunt had given to me that day. The top of the sweatsuit also zipped up the front, but I was not wearing anything underneath it. I remember talking to my (male) cousin in the kitchen, thinking I was still wearing the suede vest with the shirt underneath it, being uncomfortable & unzipping the vest. But it wasn't the vest, it was the sweatshirt, & I wasn't wearing anything underneath it. My cousin just laughed & quickly turned away. An innocent drunken mistake, but I'm sure he thought I intentionally unzipped, to be funny, or something
I eventually switched from my Captain Diets to Screwdrivers, which I think contributed to how drunk I got. Following Captain Morgan with Vodka?!? Stupid, stupid, stupid! Eventually, I just decided to leave...don't really know what contributed to that decision. I know I could have spent the night. Perhaps I'd just been embarrassed by the aforementioned flashing. So I just walked out of the house, leaving behind the vest I'd worn over, with my cell phone in the pocket, my shoes (?!?), the lasagna pan my aunt had given to me as a gift & my dignity:smackingf . I remember getting "lost" after I'd left, realizing that I was waaay to drunk to drive & going back to my aunt's to spend the night, but the door had locked behind me & I didn't want to risk waking anyone up by knocking on the door.
The next morning, I walked into my mom's kitchen just as the phone was ringing. She has this caller id that actually speaks the name of the person calling. I heard my aunt's name just before my mom picked up the phone & blurted out, "I left a bunch of stuff over there!" My aunt totally busted me. My mom hung up the phone & said my aunt told her I never should have driven home. Which, obviously, I shouldn't have. I lied & told my mom I'd only had a couple. I'm not denying the problem, nor that what I did was wrong, wrong, wrong...it's just that if I'd told my mom (who's a cop:redlight: , by the way) exactly what had happened, she probably would have put me in in-patient tx, or something. I realize that I made many
mistakes that night, & I know this is something that will not happen again.
I spent the whole next day thanking God for getting me home safe. Do you know what would have happened if I'd gotten pulled over? Rumor has it that you have to wait 3 years
to take your NCLEX after you've had a DUI. I still can't believe I risked that:selfbonk:. And I've been trying to figure out why
I got so drunk that night...part of it was peer pressure. My cousin & his girlfriend asked me several times if I'd started drinking yet, if I was just drinking plain
coffee, etc. Part of it was kind of a bonding thing with my aunt. She is the most successful person I know (owns an upscale restaurant) & is always smashed @ family gatherings.
I sincerely hope this is one of those drunken incidents that seems worse to me than it actually was. And I hope my family isn't calling eachother to talk about my "problem" now that I'm at home. Please tell me (with the exception of driving home) that this is a funny thing:chuckle & that people probably won't even remember it come Easter :behindpc: