Good morning all. I managed about four hours sleep last night, after a couple hours of naptime yesterday afternoon. I'm feeling much better now. Thought about tanning today, but alas, that would just mean bigger troubles here.
Thanks for all your support on the A's. I'm rather proud of myself, and I seriously enjoyed it. I'm not making any rash decisions to drop my summer II registration at this point, but I'm definitely mulling it over in my mind.
I honestly don't know what's going on here. Jason came home from work early just to fight with me on Monday, continued the fight ALL NIGHT, leaving me with a little over an hour of sleep, would continue to press the issue even when I tried to study (which the studying, of course, didn't happen), and even when I tried to go to bed, he'd WAKE ME UP to fight. I don't get it. All because he swears I did something in my sleep (of course, asserting I was really awake) that I know, by and large I did NOT do. When I stated the fact that I did NOT do that, he called me a liar and said that he could not believe anything that came out of my mouth from this point on. And, you guys would NOT believe what this stems from. Talking in my sleep, I could believe, even walking in my sleep maybe if I was REALLY tired. But, no.... this man wants to tell me that he believes that I literally masterbated in bed ALL NIGHT LONG... for hours on end.. :stone Number one, I cannot imagine how I wouldn't know this if it happened; number two, the night in question I went to bed in a pair of sweats that had a drawstring tightly tied, it was still knotted in the morning; number three, I think I would be a bit sore (if you KWIM) the next day if I actually did this; and number four, even if I DID (which I know better than), what would be the problem??? Not like I was going out screwing around.... At any rate, when I completely had no idea of what he was talking about, he presses the issue and tells me I'm in denial. Well, sorry, but I think if I had actually had the experience he described (and, boy, do I wish I had!!!) I would have been much less stressed and probably would not have had a tension headache for two days.... I know this sounds very small, but it's not.. not here. He went from just staring at me and continually fighting, to nothing when I came home from school yesterday. He didn't go to work yesterday either; he stayed home and slept all day after fighting with me all night. When he did get up, he left. When he came home, he took Nyquil and went to bed immediately and I didn't see him again, as he was gone to work when I got up this morning. I mean, he won't talk to me, he won't kiss me before he leaves the house, he won't even look at me or hardly be in the same room. And, I swear to you all.... I've done nothing wrong.. I don't know what to do. There is no talking to him about this, as he thinks I'm lying about it. I told him that if it'd make him feel better, fine, I'd admit to it, but he knows that I honestly don't believe that and he won't let it go. I just can't see any compromise on this.. I know I didn't, and he insists I did and he won't believe anything else.
There.. that's my story... it's raining here today and I'm going to lock myself inside and clean, I suppose. A million and one things I need to do away from the house today, but I just really don't want to be around anyone, whether I know them or not. I don't know what to do. Kids spent the night away from home last night, so I imagine I'll go get them later. Thinking I'll just clean and work out today, maybe relieve some frustration.. if that don't work.... well, perhaps a stiff drink or five is in order...