Siri - Thank you for the yummy breakfast!
Grace - I hope you get some good spring weather your way soon, and that the wind calms down!
Steph - I hope the rest of your shift goes well!
I worked today, my 3rd shift on the unit. And I think today was the worst so far. This morning I just felt SO STUPID
It really sucked. My preceptor really is nice, but there were times I could tell she was getting so frustrated with me ..... like I'm so stupid or something. I'm a brand new nurse, I don't understand how I'm supposed to know this stuff without them teaching me??!!?! And that's what they act like sometimes, like I'm stupid for not knowing things. Like I was trying to get a blood glucose on a baby, and those are so different than with an adult ..... I have such a hard time with it for some reason. I almost started crying. I kept thinking I was doing nothing right .... everything was wrong. It got a little better as the day went on but I still just felt bad. When we went to lunch she asked me how I was doing .... I told her I felt like I was having a hard time getting the hang of stuff, like I couldn't do anything right. She told me she thought I was doing great .... that I was jumping in and helping out, that I wasn't afraid like some people are. She said not to take things personally if she ever makes it seem like she's getting irritated.
SIGH. I don't know .... I guess I'll be ok. I knew when I started that this was going to be really hard and that it's normal to feel like you want to quit. Well I really did want to quit, I wanted to just not come back
Thanks for listening .... I just tell everyone at home that it's going just fine .... they'd never understand.