i know exactly how you feel, dutchgirl
this is my first year without any child or grand child or family member at all!
i always read from the book, the night before christmas
. i had this book since i was 9 years old. my pawpaw gave it to me.
i, also, would read the christmas story from the book of luke
santa claus would come the night before and everyone would wake the next day to see what they had.
this year is the first one that this tradition died. so sad.
my dh is even gone. he left late last night. i'm here all alone.
i do not like it one bit and feel so very down today.
if it wasn't for this site, i think i would cry all day long.
i wasn't even going to talk about it anymore today, but, seeing your thread just seemed like it was meant just for me.
to you, dutchgirl