I feel awful, that I haven't been on the Board enough to know what you're dealinig with right now
. I must say here...that I have a similiar deal with my sister....that has changed over the years. We used to have the same kind of relationship...as you and your sister have now. I would talk to her honestly, and openly. My sister and I have been able to sit down...and get a better understanding of each other...in last few years. I have come to love who she is...even though there are things I don't like about her...I understand her better now.
Don't let past hurts get in the way...of telling her what is going on with you know. As we grow older...we sometimes start to understand things better, and wish we could take back all the time we have lost...d/t to hurt feelings. But sometimes time just gets away from us, and we don't mean to let it go...sometimes it just does. Everyone deals with their past, and pain...in a different manner. I have long since forgiven my sister, and she has forgiven me. I hope you and your sister will come to terms with whatever has separated you....and find a renewed friendship...and a closer walk with each other.
I pray the Lord will give you strength to deal with whatever illness you're facing...and to give your sister the desire to be there for you...as she has never been before. May the Lord bless you, in whatever the situation, and give you peace in all your trials..
My Prayers are with you...and your family(((((Sleepyeyes))))))))))