Cinnamon will be crossing Rainbow Bridge

  1. *sigh* Got the news today I did not want, Cinnamon, our blue tick beagle of 12 years is at the end of her journey. I called hubby from the vet and told him I was bringing her home to love and that we had to make a decision. He listened to me cry and with a break in his voice he told me to stop the treatment, make an appointment for Friday so we can both be there and bring her home. Vet was very supportive. Sent us home with some pain meds to keep her comfortable and we will take her in Friday at 2 to have her go comfortably to sleep with us cuddling her.

    On the way home I took her to McDonalds for ice cream, normally she would go bananas when we pull up to the window. She barely had any interest in it. She has not been eating or drinking well and you can tell she does not feel well. She has areas in her mouth that are oral cancers and the vet called it extensive and fast. I cannot bear to see her in pain, and what's soon to come is too much for us to think about. I hate this. It is breaking my heart utterly. We told our 8 year old tonight and she took it terribly hard too. I know it is the right decision, but it does not make it hurt any less. If anything changes we will take her sooner, but we just wanted a bit more time with her. For the moment she is comfortable, and loved.
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  3. by   WildcatFanRN
  4. by   loricatus
    I am so sorry.

    There is nothing harder in this life than what you are having to deal with right now. I have been through what you are going through a few times and it is the most agonizing time. The only thing I can think of to console you is that your furbaby knows how much all of you love him and are looking out for him.
  5. by   tnbutterfly
    I have walked in your shoes. It is so painful.......... My heart aches for you. But know that what you are doing, you are doing out of love. You will carry the memories of Cinnamon in your heart forever.
  6. by   Sabby_NC
    Having just walked this journey only one month ago with our angel Jasmine.
    I feel for you so much.
    I offer you my love and prayerful support at this very sad and tough time in your life.
    We still cry for our fur baby so much. They touch your hearts like you could never believe.
  7. by   compassion1
    I am so sorry for you. It's a horrible thing to have to go through but you're doing the best thing for your furbaby. (((((((hugs)))))))
  8. by   BEDPAN76
    Sending thoughts and prayers out to you all, as well as a big HUG!
  9. by   WickedRedRN
    Thank you all, Friday at 2 is our appt at the vet. We have decided on cremation with a nice memorial vase. When we move to our new home we will sprinkle some ashes in the backyard so she can always rest in the sun.

    My heart is heavy even though I know this is the right thing. She seems sicker today, maybe I am imagining it? ANyway, it is evident how sick she is and she is going fast. She perked up and wagged her tail at me, snuggled up and ate a little ice cream. We are pouring lots of love on our spot dog tonight.

    Thank you all again for your throughts, hugs, and prayers. They all mean so much right now.
  10. by   P_RN
    We light a candle at 10pm Eastern time for our many rainbow bridge friends. It helps a lot. Since we will probably always live her, we have our own pet graveyard surrounded by a fence, I go talk to the chaps every now and again. It helps a lot too.
  11. by   leslie :-D
    like so many others, i too, understand your anguish.
    just know that it is never wrong when done w/love...
    and that cinnamon will soon be released from his pain and suffering.

    heartfelt hugs to you and yours.

  12. by   P_RN
    I meant to say 10 pm Mondays. And I do know how sad you feel. But Cinnamon will be there waiting when it's your time to cross the People Bridge. I know mine will be there too.
  13. by   dianah
    Please add my hugs and tears; everyone has said it all very well.

    Our furry dear ones do touch us deeply and permanently, and their passing is rightly mourned.

    Do allow yourselves to grieve in your own way.
  14. by   compassion1
    You are probably home or getting there soon. I've said a prayer for God to bring you comfort and peace. (((((((hugs)))))))