Am I losing it?

  1. Hello my friends. There's just one thing I need to know? Am I losing it? Am I going crazy? Ready for the cracker factory? Academy open your pearly gates? I mean today I FEEL PERFECTLY FINE. None of those feelings are clouding my vision today. I need to know if it's normal for depression to be so streaky like this. I mean it's been real hit and miss stuff with me lately. I can't predict it's course,or when the feeling will return. Can you see how frustrating this is for me? I need to know if I'm normal. This is so scary for me. Unchartered territory. Let me know what your thoughts are. I am going to the Doctor tomorrow to get on antidepressants. He'll probaly do a depressin inventory to find out out what would work best for me. I love you guys so much. I'll get through this somehow. Thank you so much for all of your support and prayers. It means the world to me. More than you know. Warrior Woman.
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  3. by   sunnygirl272
    in my personal experience...no you're not losing it...i have been in a similar state...before i got meds and help.. i jokingly told my counselor that i thought i was unipolar...oscillated between normal and depressed...things will level out eventually..and rememebr that the antiodepressants that you will hopefullt get tomorrow will take several weeks to get a peak effect...and even if you feel great tomorrow, you need to go to that appt, and you need to tell them how bad off you have been,including suicidal thoughts!!!

    love&peace,
    melinda
  4. by   delirium
    Originally posted by sunnygirl272
    in my personal experience...no you're not losing it...i have been in a similar state...before i got meds and help.. i jokingly told my counselor that i thought i was unipolar...oscillated between normal and depressed...things will level out eventually..and rememebr that the antiodepressants that you will hopefullt get tomorrow will take several weeks to get a peak effect...and even if you feel great tomorrow, you need to go to that appt, and you need to tell them how bad off you have been,including suicidal thoughts!!!

    love&peace,
    melinda
    Ditto everything Melinda said.

    I'm in a bit of a funk myself. In fact, I think maybe I should stop posting for awhile cause I have to be bumming everybody out.

    Your feelings are very normal for depression.
  5. by   hoolahan
    No Miss Purp, stick around, I love your posts. We are a family here, for better or worse, etc... :kiss

    WW, NO you are NOT losing it. My first question to you is, who IS normal?? What do you think normal should be?? If you answer the Brady Bunch, I'm sorry, you have reached the Osbourne Family here, or in my house, more like Rosanne & family! Nobody's life is perfect and level everyday, if they say it is, they are either on meds themselves or total liars!!

    I was feeling just exactly like you did when I returned to the VNA back in January. I was going through an incredible amount of stress from a job I had taken in which I discovered Medicaid fraud. I have been called to interview w the atty gen'l's office twice, not that that worries me, I know I didn't do anything wrong, just the whole discovering of it, knowing what they were doing to the pt's. The pt's begged me to stay, but I just couldn't, and I felt like I was abandoning them to God know's what fate at the hands of these evil people. I felt guilty, stressed, like a failure, had to return to VNA, and was unhappy about it, yada yada. I felt like a yoyo of emotions. I still do. I took a new position and it is testing my patience sorely. I feel one day like calling my doc and asking him to double my zoloft dose, and other days I feel great.

    We are humans, we can't help how we feel, we just have to figure out how to cope with it. For some it is meds, for others prayer, others.... who knows? And some don't cope at all.

    So Theresa, if you are worried about going to the doctor and telling him you feel depressed, but you don't burst into tears at the visit? THAT, is normal.

    OK?? {{{{{Theresa}}}}} :kiss
  6. by   l.rae
    doesn't sound very unusual...but see the MD....he can evaluate you up close and personal........LR
  7. by   MollyMo
    Originally posted by warrior woman
    Hello my friends. There's just one thing I need to know? Am I losing it? Am I going crazy? Ready for the cracker factory? Academy open your pearly gates? I mean today I FEEL PERFECTLY FINE. None of those feelings are clouding my vision today. I need to know if it's normal for depression to be so streaky like this. I mean it's been real hit and miss stuff with me lately. I can't predict it's course,or when the feeling will return. Can you see how frustrating this is for me? I need to know if I'm normal. This is so scary for me. Unchartered territory. Let me know what your thoughts are. I am going to the Doctor tomorrow to get on antidepressants. He'll probaly do a depressin inventory to find out out what would work best for me. I love you guys so much. I'll get through this somehow. Thank you so much for all of your support and prayers. It means the world to me. More than you know. Warrior Woman.
    Sister-friend, I recently had a breakdown. Scared everybody around me. I mean I was gone. After my breakdown, I had my breakthrough. I got set down so God could lift me up. I know now that I can't be everything to everybody. It leaves nothing for me. I hung up my cape and took the "S" off my chest. I don't want to be Superwoman anymore. It's impossible. Don't try to go through. Let God take you through. The minister at my church says "...if you're catching hell, just drop it. If you're going through hell, keep moving,don't stop." God will see you through. Be Blessed. :angel2:
  8. by   stressedlpn
    ther were times in my darkest hours that I could not leave the house. I would have major panic attack for no reason at all, some days I would be fine other days well you know the feeling have been like this since my early teens, after my mom passed I did not leave the house for three months, finally got help about a year ago have been diagnosed as bipolar. Meds have made my life so much better(combined with therapy) I had to be totally honest with my doctor. my advice from one who has been where your at is let it all out at your app. hold nothing back. it will help in the long run. My heart goes out to you and I continue to pray for you all the time. love to ya kelli
  9. by   adrienurse
    Theresa, you have been through a lot recently! Depression is a normal response for when the world stops making sense to you. You are in good company here. Many, many of us have experienced depression and some of us are on antidepressants. these can be a godsend. I have had melt-downs in the past. They do not follow a formula and can be scary as hell. The important thing is that you are seeking help, and recognize that you can not longer control it on your own. Thake care.
  10. by   moonchild20002000
    Theresa,

    You have recieved some good advice,I don't know that I have anything to add.
    I don't think you are losing it,you have been through a lot.
    Theresa,its time to take care of yourself.Tell your MD all of your sx,don't leave anything out. I think that once you get on the proper medication things will look a lot better to you. It would be a good thing if you could talk to a professional.
    Keep us posted,we care about you!
  11. by   Mkue
    Originally posted by moonchild20002000
    Theresa,

    You have recieved some good advice,I don't know that I have anything to add.
    I don't think you are losing it,you have been through a lot.
    Theresa,its time to take care of yourself.Tell your MD all of your sx,don't leave anything out. I think that once you get on the proper medication things will look a lot better to you. It would be a good thing if you could talk to a professional.
    Keep us posted,we care about you!
    Ditto, agree with Moonchild.

    Take Care Theresa
  12. by   Love-A-Nurse
    (((((theresa)))))
  13. by   GPatty
    {{{Theresa}}}
  14. by   delirium
    Theresa,

    I'm sending you love and cyber hugs for your appt today... please post and let us know how it went.

    Reb

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