Am I being over dramatic????

  1. It takes alot for me to be vulnerable and message boards are no exception. But I need to vent.

    Recently, while reading the local newspaper, I saw an add about a poetry contest. I hesitated and then thought "what the heck"? anyway, I submitted a very personal poem that I wrote.

    When I went home for lunch, I received notice that the poem I submitted was selected for publishing and a possible prize. (not sure if it is a hoax or not, but all in all it seemed legit)

    I was first of all surprised and then became excited, I have been told often that my talent is in writing and in words. So..... of course silly me, I began to believe it.

    Well back to the vulnerable part, I ran in the house and shared with my SO the news. The relationship has been tense lately, so it took alot for me to share. (another story). anyway........ I'm sharing and talking fast and ask the question, "would you like to hear the poem"? And my SO said yeah, sure.

    After I read the poem he says, and I quote " oh my God, they must have been desperate." AARRGGHHHH :angryfire I literally felt my heart break, and because of the tension lately, refused to allow this person to see the heartache I was experiencing. I am not sure why I have been so passive lately, but right at that moment, I left, and said to myself, "self, yea, maybe he is right" So I threw the letter away, and went on with my day. What an experience of mixed emotions.

    Maybe I overreacted, and maybe I didn't react appropriately, I dunno? My heart hurts. And I knew I'd get a hug and support here. In comparison to the world these days, it seems like such a trivial thing, but it matters to me.

    any thoughts? all thoughts welcome.
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  2. 28 Comments

  3. by   Shotzie
    OMG!!! I am so sorry the person you needed was the person who stuck the knife in you.
    Please, please hear these words as a warning...a good man, one who is good husband material, good spending-the-rest-of-your-life-together material WILL NEVER BELITTLE YOU!!!
    This is passive aggressive and was meant to demean you when you were vulnerable. It may be excused as "I was angry at you" but anger does not give anyone the right to hurt another person.
    Please know how happy I am for you and your accomplishment.
    Hold tight to your talents and work to increase them and take joy from them.
    And run as fast as you can away from your current "SO". No one who is truly "significant" will treat you this way.
    Hugs to you!!!
  4. by   NDivine
    Thanks Shotzie,

    I will consider your comments. I think I know that, yet emotions have a terrible way of controlling decisions.

    Some days, I reach a point where I tell myself, and try to make myself believe that I am not worthy of better, and today, possibly, woke me up. We'll see, knowing me, lately, I'll sweep it under the rug, and forget about it, until I am ready, and we all know when we'd had enough.

    As for this evening, I will tell myself that it was a lesson learned.

    Thanks for being what I needed.
  5. by   Boe
    Overreacted? No Way! I would have been excited too. I am so sorry that you were hurt, and I wanted to offer you my support and congradulate you because it is a wonderful accomplishment.
    Bo
  6. by   Stitchie
    Congrats on a truly worthy accomplishment.
    Your SO is trying to belittle your accomplishment -- maybe because of a need to feel better about himself? No matter what, it is an inexcusable comment. And the 'I was only joking' brushoff that is sure to come when you confront him about his insensitivity is meant to further belittle you.

    You have much to give. Please see thru his lack of character and run.
  7. by   Rapheal
    I don't think you were being overly dramatic or even sensitive in expecting your SO to support you. But even if you were (not saying you were)- then that would make you a better poet. So put that talent to use and write a poem about that experience. I LOVE poetry and encourage you to develop that talent.
  8. by   pghfoxfan
    The "SO" is a dickhead~

    ***** Dump him!

    Don't let him bring you down, or make you question your abilities. Stay confident and submit your poem.
  9. by   gypsyatheart
    ((((((((HUGS))))))))) to you! Please don't let his hurtful comments get you down. Rise above, know that you have talent! You are right, you will get the support and encouragement you need here.
    I'm sorry you're dealing with this, don't stop writing! It's a wonderful outlet!
  10. by   Tweety
    No you're not over reacting. That was very insensitive. I'm sorry.

    (Be careful, a lot of those poetry "contests" are just to get you to buy a very expensive book, so you can see your poem published.)

    Why not share the poem with us? We'll be kind, I promise.
  11. by   Auds
    Quote from NDivine
    It takes alot for me to be vulnerable and message boards are no exception. But I need to vent.

    Recently, while reading the local newspaper, I saw an add about a poetry contest. I hesitated and then thought "what the heck"? anyway, I submitted a very personal poem that I wrote.

    When I went home for lunch, I received notice that the poem I submitted was selected for publishing and a possible prize. (not sure if it is a hoax or not, but all in all it seemed legit)

    I was first of all surprised and then became excited, I have been told often that my talent is in writing and in words. So..... of course silly me, I began to believe it.

    Well back to the vulnerable part, I ran in the house and shared with my SO the news. The relationship has been tense lately, so it took alot for me to share. (another story). anyway........ I'm sharing and talking fast and ask the question, "would you like to hear the poem"? And my SO said yeah, sure.

    After I read the poem he says, and I quote " oh my God, they must have been desperate." AARRGGHHHH :angryfire I literally felt my heart break, and because of the tension lately, refused to allow this person to see the heartache I was experiencing. I am not sure why I have been so passive lately, but right at that moment, I left, and said to myself, "self, yea, maybe he is right" So I threw the letter away, and went on with my day. What an experience of mixed emotions.

    Maybe I overreacted, and maybe I didn't react appropriately, I dunno? My heart hurts. And I knew I'd get a hug and support here. In comparison to the world these days, it seems like such a trivial thing, but it matters to me.

    any thoughts? all thoughts welcome.
    Wow! How wonderful it must be to have a talant!! Im still searching for mine. I applaud you for taking the steps to write from the heart and to share with your SO. I wonder though, how signifigant this other really is. I ask you this, if he wrote something for you, and it was the most awful thing youd ever heard, would you not tell him how much you loved it and how wonderful you thought he was to express himself, and mean it even? Id expect nothing less !! Good luck and NEVER SETTLE!!
  12. by   nurseygrrl
    Your self esteem comes from YOU. Don't let anyone 'make' you feel bad about yourself. If you are unhappy and being treated badly then I think you should seek something better. I would love it if you would share your poem with us.
  13. by   nurseunderwater
    :angryfire
    I am so sorry that your SO didn't give you what you needed. that really sux.

    and as far as being emotional and sensitive....these a qualities not liabilities. these traits will be an asset to you in your writing and enable others to connect with what you are expressing in your words.

    don't give up your dream...this is a crucial time for you as an emergent artist. allow yourself this moment to help build your confidence, fill your cup with what you read here and then.....hit your SO with the "insensitive oaf" stick. and hey, if you want, I can come over and do it for you!

    got your back sister,

    K
  14. by   leslie :-D
    [QUOTE=3rdShiftGuy]No you're not over reacting. That was very insensitive. I'm sorry.

    (Be careful, a lot of those poetry "contests" are just to get you to buy a very expensive book, so you can see your poem published.)

    :imbar ARE YOU SERIOUS TWEETY???????????? OMG!! when my dtr. was around 11 she submitted a poem and it was published in one very expensive book.......i thought her poem was wonderful. this is a gimmick???? shoot. well, we'll just keep it between us. my dtr. was SOOO proud, as was her momma.

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