ooooooh... had an inservice after work this morning, and during the inservice, our instructor mentioned that the Inservice Coordinator position was open... and asked if there was an RN in the house that would be interested in the position.
It would entail being responsible for four clinincs in our geographical area.. preparing, coordinating, and delivering all the inservice training and reviews for these four clinics.. two here in Va.(including mine), and two across the line in West Va.
All within an approx. 2 hour drivetime. All weekends and holidays off.
It was soooooooo tempting, in that I absolutely LOVE to teach.. would thoroughly enjoy being a preceptor, but our turnover is so low that I'd never get the chance to precept anyone. Yes, I'd love the teaching, motivating aspect of it dearly. The driving wouldn't be toooooo bad... although I'm not as keen on driving all over the place every day as I once would have been a few years back. Plus with the gas prices what they are right now, I don't think the mileage would truly cover it... not to speak of the wear and tear on my vehicle. Had they offered a company car.. it might have been irresistable.
Gosh... thinking here.. no more getting up at 0300, running my legs off and stressing out during turnover between shifts... all the bending and lifting/transferring....
BUT I COULDN'T DO IT !!! Part of me wanted to jump at it, but I felt cemented in my seat, and couldn't make myself jump up and say "YES!"
I'm one who LOVES change...doing something new and different... always eager for a new challenge... and I passed this up ! Aaaaaaaaaaaaargh !!!
And I know why.... I'm just not ready to leave my PATIENTS yet !!!
I could hardly imagine not doing patient care... being there every morning to greet them... they so fully expect me to be there, and I would miss them HORRIBLY, and I know they would me as well. Heck, just give me a rare two or three off in a row, and all I hear when I get back is "so how was Florida? how's the fishing down there...?"
Gee... did I do the right thing? Will I regret missing this opportunity? Or would I regret having taken it... and miss my patients to the point of really kicking myself.... ponder, ponder... so confused.
I just really think I'm not ready to leave them. Not yet. Perhaps 4 or 5 years down the road...not getting any younger here, and don't know it I'll be able to do what I do now another 5 years from now. So it would be a nice change then.
Ah well... just thinking out loud here...