A Profound Sense of Loss

  1. Our family dog, Oliver, crossed over to the Rainbow Bridge today.
    I adopted Oliver when he was 6 years old. He was in our family for 15 years - he lived to a ripe old age of 21 for a miniature Schnauzer.

    My Dad was closest to Oliver. He and Oliver would go on long walks. Dad would take him in the car during cool days. Dad is trying to be stoic about it, but I could hear his voice trembling when I talked to him earlier.

    My brother took a senior picture with Oliver. A portrait of Miltie and Oliver hanging out at Swan Creek Preserve. My brother took Oliver into the Vet to be put down. He's shaken also. I asked him if he stayed with him and what happened. I shouldn't have.

    Miltie said the veterinary staff kept saying how "cute" Oliver was, which made it harder for him. What they didn't know that Oliver could no longer hear, had developed open sores that were not healing, and had become incontinent of his bladder and bowels. After they asked my brother a lot of questions, they had him take Oliver into a room and place him in a basket. I asked Miltie if he stayed with him. He said he had to turn and walk away - he broke down in the office crying.

    What tears me apart is that Oliver was left alone. He probably thought he was just there for a check-up or grooming. I know it was hard for my brother, but I wish he would have stayed.

    I wish I could say my tears end here.

    My mother called upset because the female sibling thought it would be a great idea to bring her pet cat over - just a few hours after my brother came back from the Vet's office. Well, if anyone heard a small explosion in Toledo about 30 minutes ago, it was my brother going the f*ck off on the female sh-t for brains sibling. Everyone is upset after they had one helluva blow up.

    Anyway, I apologize for my "kumbaya" thread. I'm having a hard time stopping myself from crying and I don't want to upset Emma, so I'm staying upstairs for awhile.

    Rest in peace, Oliver. There's not a family who could have loved you more.

    Last edit by LasVegasRN on Dec 23, '02
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  3. by   baseline
    Oh Vegas! I'm crying with you. My fathers dog was hit by a car on Christmas Eve. She was 13 years old and a wonderful friend. I think I told her story one other time here and I can't do it again. Just know that my heart goes out to you....and I thnk that Oliver understood.....afterall.......he'd been taking care of all of you for a long time.......
  4. by   Stargazer
    Oh, Vegas, sweetie, I'm so sorry. Oliver had to have been well-loved to live 21 years. And I bet if he could speak, he'd have told you himself how much he loved you right back, and how lucky he was. Consider yourself hugged.
  5. by   l.rae
    LV, l am very sorry. As a dog owner ...my other "boy"... l can relate. Wish l could say something profound....lucky dog to be loved so much for so long. we open up our hearts knowing one day it will break. Think about the wonderful life Oliver had because he was loved dearly...sigh......l know l have had my Jack for 10 yrs now and one day........well, (((((((((LV))))))))). we're here for you.........LR
  6. by   LasVegasRN
    Your words mean a lot to me - I can't tell you how much. I feel silly sobbing like this, especially if I'm around people who aren't pet lovers. You cry because you have lost a member of your family, and they just don't have any comprehension of how painful and how real the loss is.
  7. by   baseline
    I have found that dogs in particular llove us unconditionally.....no matter what we do....right or wrong. Never feel foolish for crying for a good friend.
  8. by   Q.

    Oh, I am so, so sorry.
  9. by   duckie
    No one understands your tears more than I do and it's okay to cry. I still miss my little one and it's been over a year. Their love is so profound and devoted, sometimes I think we as humans could learn a lot from them. My heart aches for you, you are in my thoughts.
    Originally posted by baseline
    I have found that dogs in particular love us unconditionally.....no matter what we do....right or wrong. Never feel foolish for crying for a good friend.
    This sums it all up. I'm so sorry Vegas.

  11. by   ShandyLynnRN
    oh man Vegas. I am so sorry! I just know that your little guy loved you, Now he isn't hurting anymore, and can hear all those birdies chirping and his friends calling him! I know, this probably sounds really silly, but this is how I think of the dogs I have had that had to be put down. I think animals have souls just as we do, and his wonderful spirit is now looking over you, and I am sure he is remembering you, and how you and your family cared for him, and what a great life you gave him! (((((((LV)))))) hugs to you and your family. I know that any animal lover can relate to the loss you are feeling, and none would think it anything but normal for you to be upset and tearful about losing your companion.
  12. by   Kayzee
    Sorry to hear of your loss. I have a cat who is 16, and I know that day will come. A pet becomes so much a part of you. Loss is so hard. He must have had great care and love to live to that age. Take comfort in knowing he had a wonderful family.
  13. by   sunnygirl272
    manoman....deneen....i am sooooooo sorry...wish i was there so we could cry together...
  14. by   Robin61970
    Sorry for the loss of your old friend Vegas......hang in there sweetie......