I know from my own experience that the first anniversary of a tragedy such as you've experienced is the hardest. You have faced this horrendous loss and gotten through this year with incredible dignity and grace; now that the last of the 'firsts' is over, the healing process can begin in earnest.
Just go easy on yourself, and don't expect a total "cure"; I've learned that the loss of a child is something you can get past
, something you can get through
, but not something you ever completely get over
. You'll know you've made peace with it when the pain of remembrance becomes a dull ache, and whenever you think of your son, your first reaction is a smile instead of tears. It may take one year, it may take twenty; but it will happen someday.......and in the meantime, please keep in touch with us, cry on our shoulders, and talk about your son any time you want. We'll be here.
God bless you and keep you through this day, and always.