I'm just sick about the fact that I gained back all the weight I lost earlier this year, but I am resolute in my pledge to myself NOT to do anything extreme in trying to lose weight. That's where I think I've gone wrong in the past, trying to change everything at once, and I've finally figured out that this is not the way to do it.
For one thing, I've decided that I'm only going to lose the 40 pounds I regained and not worry about the other 100......I came to a point below which I could not go no matter what I did, got discouraged and depressed, and gave up. I may not have been anyone's idea of female beauty at 275 lbs., but I was healthy, had plenty of energy and was working out nearly every day on top of running the floors at the hospital for 8 hours a day. I just want to get back to that, and worry only about maintaining that level of fitness and weight loss.......if I really want to go for it again after that, I may try, but I'm NOT going to sweat that out now!
For another......no more 'diets'. No more Atkins, no more writing down everything, no more carb/calorie/fat gram counting, no more depriving myself entirely of the foods I love. Just using common sense, eating a wider variety of whole foods, paying attention to portion control, and doing plenty of exercise.
That's all I'm going to do for now........I know I can manage that, it's just that I've got to somehow break the cycle of spring/summer weight loss and fall/winter regain, and stop allowing my seasonal-affective problems to determine my eating patterns and, ultimately, my weight.
To be continued...........