"Duckie" update

  1. To all of you that resonded to my question about Paxil and gave me so much support and encouragement, I just wanted to let you know what it happening. I went to my doctor and had a long talk, also a good cry. I really trust my doc and told him I would do what ever he thought was in my best interest. After telling him about everything that has happened in the past year, it was no shock that he felt I had a chemical imbalance and started me on Paxil for depression, anxiety and panic attacks. He ran labs, though I don't know the results yet, to rule out other possible causes. After 3 weeks I will begin a titration of my Xanax so that I won't be taking it all the time but he wanted me to give the Paxil a chance to start working before I started going off Xanax. I have been working hard on attitude and am just taking life, one day at a time. When I start to worry or stress out, I ask myself, can I really change the outcome in this situation. I have decided that I am going to trust in the Lord to get me through this and I am very lucky to have such a wonderful supportive family. I have started keeping a journal, and each day I write the positive and negative that has happened. I was very surprised to find that I had support I didn't even know about, in my work supervisor. She had prompted a friend of mine at work to talk to my husband a couple of weeks ago. She said she didn't come to me because she thought I might become defensive and she's most likely right. We had a very long talk last night and she arranged for me and hubby to have today off, and she told me to just spend the day loving him and counting my blessings. I was very surprised. I do have many blessings in my life, one of which is all of you. I cannot tell you how much your words of encouragement meant to me. I wish I could give you all a hug and thank you in person, but since I cannot do that, I will just remember to always ask God to bless my BB buddies. I admit I'm still scared but am trying daily to look at myself and see what I can do to make my thoughts more positive. Well....I've rambled on enough, so once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart and may the dear Lord richly bless each one of you!!!!!
  2. 14 Comments

  3. by   CATHYW
    Oh, Duckie, I am so glad that you went to your PMD and started getting things straightened out. You will be amazed at how Paxil can help you see things a little more clearly, without getting yourself totally worked up.
    Your Nurse Manager sounds like a person who remembers what Nursing and life are all about. She hasn't become totally immersed in the business and $$ end of management!
    God bless you and your husband and family. Take good care of yourself!
  4. by   nursedawn67
    Duckie...sound like you do all the right things....hang in there you'll be just fine!! And always remember we are here for you!
  5. by   LTC-LPN
    Taking that first step and going to the doctor was a good one. I am praying for a good outcome with the Paxil. Continue to keep us informed and I hope in a few short weeks (long enough for the Paxil to start working) that you will be feeling so much better.

    Jane Ann
  6. by   Cindy_A
    Welcome back Duckie! Hope everything continues to go well for you. Take care and God Bless!
  7. by   Mary Dover
    YAAAAYY!!! Sounds great Duckie. So glad to hear that you went to the doc and have started the med. Bet you'll be feeling like a new woman in just a matter of time. Take care, and God bless you.
  8. by   mother/babyRN
    Hugs to you! I am only one voice on this board but I sincerely hope all goes well for you! Many prayers.....
  9. by   Jenny P
    Duckie, I read your thread last night and will include you on my prayer list for now. It sounds like you have a very supportive Hubby and work supervisor. Take care of yourself. You have touched many people in your life, some that you don't even know. May the joy you have given others come back to you multiplied many times over.

  10. by   prmenrs
    Duckie, you are a class act--glad you're doing better! Hang in there, you're worth it!
  11. by   judy ann
    Dear Duckie, the hardest step is always the first. Keep on stepping and you will find that they get easier as you go. Yes, you have many BB friends, and I suspect some who don't post. You continue in my prayers.:kiss
  12. by   micro
    :angryfire :angel2:

    When life gets so hard and ______, you just dance around it, laugh out loud, take cover from the negativity out there, because you are special, and you are loved by me at the least of all that love you. But Duckie, never and I mean never sell yourself short.................tears and fears are okay, but in their time and place.......and then it is time to put them away and say HEY!!!!!!!!! IT IS duckie.........everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    I am here like it or lump it............and DUCKIE, YOU ARE TOOOOO' cool, never and I mean never forget this...........

    p.s. you are never, never alone...............
  13. by   aimeee
    That's great news, Duckie! I'll bet life is looking a bit brighter already!
  14. by   semstr
    Duckie, way to go girl!!
    So glad you made the first steps, and it's true you'll never be alone on this board!!

    Take care, Renee