I am engaged to be married for about a year now. I love my fiance very dearly. We have been together for a long time and gone through a lot. I have supported him mentally, physically, and now financially as he begins his training. He works a good job. We have been together for 10 years.
My ring is less then a 0.25 carat diamond. When I went to get it resized, I inquired about buying some colored stones the lady at the jeweler stated that my ring was like a "$35 diamond." It made me tearful to hear that, because she was so flippant, as if my ring was cheap and worthless. My fiance did not want me to show him any types of rings. I pretended like I loved my ring, but have confided in a few of my friends that I am disappointed in the size and poor quality. I am always judged harshly, but many of these girls have 1-2 carat diamonds or larger.
One of my friends was recently engaged and her stone is beautiful. Everyone was gushing over it, and even though I was happy for her, I can't help but feel jealous of her beautiful ring.
It makes me feel selfish and materialistic, and never in the world would I imagine that I would be the girl who coveted the beautiful diamond. But it makes me feel like my fiance didn't put any time and effort into the ring he picked, and didn't want to spend his money on me. He has enough to buy me a decent stone. I am thinking of purchasing my own, but I don't want to hurt his feelings. Please help me.